No Limits (Ethma Fanfiction)

3: Perfect

Today was my first day back at school, Graysons as well (obviously). It was a struggle to get out of bed but I done it anyways. Emma was already in my head and I needed to see her.

Emma and I planned to meet up early at the school since it'd be the first time we'd seen each other in a week, the longest we've went since being together. I got out of the car and headed inside the building, immediately getting stares and 'I'm sorry's from multiple people, whom I didn't know. I found Emma waiting with Ellie in the cafeteria and she smiled as I sat down next to her. I placed a kiss to her lips and then another, it'd been a week.

"Get a room," Ellie spoke up, giggling at the end. I rolled my eyes.

"Yeah yeah, cut us some slack," I said.

Emma laughed and continued eating her breakfast. I usually would chat with her and Ellie but today I just didn't feel like it. I wasn't myself. Emma seemed to notice as she turned to me with a concerned look on her face.

"Ethan," she whispered. "I was thinking, let's skip today. I don't wanna be here anymore than you or Gray do. So let's skip, plus it's been a week and I need us time," I looked at her a second before smiling and nodding. We told Ellie we where going to my car for a second, and we did, but only to grab Emma a coat. It was a little chilly since it was morning.

Not knowing where to go at first, we just walked silently on the sidewalk and swung out intertwined hands between us. Not noticing that eyes where watching us leave.

The morning air was fresh, the sun was shining and the sky was blue. It was a beautiful day. We eventually came upon a park and Emma excitedly dragged me to a bench that was under a tree. We sat down and I put my arms around her. She played with my hair, and I occasionally would kiss her. I could do this for eternity and never get tired of it. Obviously something would cause this to go wrong.

"Hey E, I wanna talk to you about something that I should've brought up before now, and I'm sorry but I just didn't wanna make things even more stressful than it already was," Emma started. I furrowed my eyebrows.

"What is it?" She sat up out from under my grip and looked around nervously.

There where currently another pair of eyes on us, that we didn't know about.

"Well... it uh, us." I bit my lip nervously.

"What about us?" I asked hesitantly.

"It's just, you're great Ethan, perfect even, and I just feel as if I'm not enough. Before you say anything, I didn't mention anything because I know what you're gonna say. 'I love you and I'll always only want you' and try to make this better but Ethan people see us together and they don't think wow what a nice couple they see you, and then me and think he deserves better." Emma's voice cracked and I stiffened up. Why would she even listen to the people saying these things. She was right, I love her, and if she loved me she wouldn't even question our relationship. Her breathing pattern quickened and she began shaking.

"Emma calm down please, I don't see why you're feeling the need to tell me this now, I love you, I do. But how can you think that you're not good enough for me? Other people's views don't matter. What matters is us, and now. If you love me, then you'll forget what they say. You'll stop questioning us, and you'll calm down," I added noticing her tears forming.

"I-I-I do love you," she quickly let out. "It's just, I-I can't help myself. I hear these things and-and I know they shouldn't matter but to me they do, it how my mind works. It's how I work. I thought you knew that by now," she said.

"Emma there's nothing I don't know about you, look we skipped school to be together can't we just do that?" I pleaded. She shook her head.

"I-I can't, not when I feel like this. I thought I could but I can't," she stood and began walking back in the direction of school. I stood, huffing.

"Walk. Like always! You know what?! Don't come to me again if you can't woman up and talk to me about it, you're selfish!" I don't know why I said what I did, but I instantly felt regret as Emma sobbed where I could hear and picked up her pace. Practically running.

I let out a groan and sat back down on the bench, rubbing my face in frustration.

"Ethan," a voice spoke. I looked up quickly to my right to see Sydney standing there fiddling with her hands.

"What are you doing here?" I asked. She sat beside me and but her lip.

"I-I followed you. I saw you leave and I was curious, and then that happened and I felt like leaving but I couldn't leave you here upset, are you okay?" She said. I wanted to be mad but I wasn't. I sighed.

"M'fine. Emma and I are fine. She just needs time, and I guess I do too. I just don't understand why she doesn't feel as if she's enough. I tell her I love her and I hope I treat her well. It just bugs me, and then right here after loosing my dad-" I sniffled. Sydney gently placed her hand on my back.

"Ethan, I'm not the best person to be sitting here, with you. We both know that. But I am and even though I'll admit to saying things I shouldn't have, I'm a girl too. I see how Emma looks at you, it's how I wanna look at you. Anyways, she has her own issues as well as you, and I think it's starting to effect you both in a way you don't know how to make it better. The only thing I can do is be a friend," she rubbed my back softly.

I nodded my head listening to Sydney's words. She listened to me and wasn't a bitch when responding. She pulled out her phone and clicked her button multiple times.

"Dead?" I asked. She nodded and I handed her mine. "Here, you can use mine. Consider it a favor for talking to me," I said. I felt like helping her since she helped me calm down.

I shouldn't have though, because she stood and walked to a far tree, searching my contacts and finding Emma's name. Sydney looked back over at me with a smile as she put the phone to her ear.

"H-hello Ethan- I'm so-" Emma started, still having a slight panic attack.

"Not Ethan sweetie. Listen, I've just finished talking to him and I've got some bad news, he doesn't wanna see you anymore," Sydney said.

"W-What?" Emma asked shakily.

"Yeah I know. I'm so sorry I have to tell you but he was to scared to say it himself, I thought I would help him out. Oh and it'd be a good idea to keep your distance at school, he doesn't like when people stare," Sydney assured. Emma gasped for air on the other end.

"No- he-he wouldn't he love-"

"Loves you? Not to be a bitch but he doesn't love you, he was keeping you around for company, you got played," Emma hung up the phone frantically sobbing, causing Sydney to grow a smile. She calmed her smile and walked back over to me and handed my phone back.

We sat for a few seconds and then I felt a gentle kiss on my cheek. I look at her and she smiled, standing and beginning to head back to school.

"Call me if you need anything Ethan, I put my number in your phone. Oh, and I mean anything," she said before walking away.

Maybe Sydney was so bad after all.

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A/N: AHHH So sorry it's taken me a few days to update but I'm back! I was struggling not only with planning this chapter but mental health as well. I hope you're all still excited to read. Thank you for reading.

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