Im in love. ( Connor franta fanfic)

please dont hate me....

I sat there with my fingers intertwined with Connor's fingers and my head on his chest.

We were all watching The nightmare before Christmas since it was October. I love Halloween. Its just so fun.

I sighed. It was cold so I excused myself and went to my room.

I decided to put on my PJs so I grabbed my oversises long sleeve shirt and slipped it on. I grabbed my plaid short pajama shorts and slipped those on. I pulled up my sleeves to reveal my wrist and the bandeges were still on me. I took them off and stared at my scars and cuts.

they all looks disgusting.

I stared at them. Just stared.

I frowned.

Why did I do this to myself .

I felt someone grab my shoulders.

I turned around to see Connor. He looked shocked , he was looking at my wrist.

" You hate me don't you? You think I want attention? That I'm an idiot?" I said on the verge of tears.

" Why would I think that?" He said looking at me.

He grabbed my wrist and examined my cuts. I was crying.

Connor started to kiss my cuts which caused me to cry harder.

Once he finished , he looked me dead in my eyes .

"Promise me you'll never do this again , please. ", he said

I began to cry even more.

Connor cupped my face , willing away my tears with his thumb.

I nodded

He kissed me. I gave him a tight hug

"Come on , let's go o join the others, shall we?' He says gesturing at the door. I smiled

" okay."

We walked down the stairs and back to the couch.

The movie was almost over and everyone was tired.

Once it ended Ricky, JC and kian went home . And so did Sam and Trevor. They all gave me a hug goodbye.

Connor stayed with me claiming he was going to leave later.

We ended up staying up till 4 am and watched movies on my laptop , took selfies, laughed way to much, went on Tumblr , saw things we shouldnt have, and then fell asleep on my bed together.

I would up around 5 to see that my legs were intertwined with Connors and his arms were around me. I smiled, then cuddled up closer to him. He wrapped my arms around me so he had a good grip. I grinned and then went back to sleep.