Fairy Diary

Love in the Open

  25. Bliss, the year of the Unicorn      

Dear diary,

I know that I usually talk to you about things that happened a while ago, but now I have to tell you what happened recently.

It might be a bit confusing that I will skip from our relationship beginnings to now, but we had a few big days, me and Van.

You might be thinking that we got engaged or married or something as big as that, and you would be wrong.

However, what happened in the last few weeks was no less important to us than the nuptials to others.

I don't want you to underestimate the importance of what happened. We went public with our relationship.

It was...an interesting experience.

I am so overwhelmed by different thoughts and emotions now, so much so, that I decided that I have to tell you about everything that happened immediately.

But don't worry, I know I skipped a lot of details about our relationship and I will go back to that.

Right now, I need to vent.

You are the only one who listens without judging or interrupting, and I need that right now.

So, as I already told you, Van and I were hiding our relationship because it was a taboo, something that was never done before.

We didn't want others' negative opinions or words to blemish our relationship, so we decided not to tell anyone. After all, it was no one else's business but ours.

At first, it was kind of exciting. You know, forbidden love and all that, but after a while, it became tiresome. Sneaking around became a task, and often I wasn't able to meet Van because I couldn't slip out unnoticed.

Also, it started making me sad and honestly frustrated, that I couldn't hold his hand in public, let alone kiss him. The worst thing about it all was that I was the one insisting on secrecy.

In the elf community, it wasn't such a big deal if you did something unconventional, they didn't care too much, but the fairies...

We are very traditional, and no one ever thought of doing something different, so I had no idea what to expect. I wasn't afraid of them, but I did fear the disappointment in their eyes.

Whether we want to admit it or not, we often seek approval from the ones we care about, and sometimes we put that before our happiness. It is a very strange thing but it is true.

When I see approval in my mother's eyes, I feel like I have done something well, I feel proud. In contrast, when I see disappointment, I feel sad and empty, like I did something wrong even when I know I didn't.

I knew I had to get rid of that kind of mentality and decided to do it step by step.

First of all, I gathered all of my good friends and told them the truth. I told them the whole story, about how we met (which some already knew), but also about how we fell in love, which was a shocking revelation for all of them.

Having already met Van, Clementine, my dear mare friend, was immediately happy for us.

"He is the coolest elf ever. He saved my life. It's so nice to hear that you two found each other. I am so happy for you. " She told me, the moment I finished telling them everything.

The others were far more confused. They couldn't comprehend how such a relationship was even possible.

However, they were much more understanding than I expected, even my fairy friend Linky reacted much better than I thought she would.