Fairy Diary

Friendships and consequences

28. Bliss, the year of the Unicorn      

Dear diary,

In the last few days, I have spent a lot of time thinking. Thinking about friendships, what they mean, and more importantly, what they mean to me.

I have always been a very cheerful and friendly person, well-liked by others, but now...I am not sure what to think about my current situation.

After all, what is friendship? Is it a relation of affection in which there is mutual understanding, and the ability to be yourself around your friends, without the fear of being judged by them? Or is it something different, something I don't understand?

In the past, I had so many friends with whom I would chat with from time to time, or we would just fly around enjoying life and now...

At this time, the only fairy friend that I still have is Linky.

How does that even happen? How can they reject me only because I chose to love an elf? Was that such a bad thing to do?

I honestly don't understand their anger. Who I am dating will not influence them whatsoever, but they don't seem to be able to get over it.

I gave them a few days to get used to the idea, but nothing has changed. They refuse to even try. As far as I can tell since people don't communicate with me as much as they used to.

I should explain better, I know, I am just so...heartbroken. It is difficult to explain.

One thing you should know to even try to understand me is that fairies usually have many friends. Everyone is friends with everyone else. My whole life was spent in that kind of surrounding, nice, polite, friendly, but after they found out about Van, it changed so suddenly that my head is still spinning from the sudden negativity that started spreading like a wildfire.

The moment they heard about me and Van, they started avoiding me. They thought that it was something contagious, something I could pass on to them by my mere presence. Some people with whom I shared some of the best and some of the worst moments of my life, acted like I didn't exist.

It hurts more than I expected, and I am not sure if there is anything I can do to change the situation for the better. Some people whom I considered as close friends, pretend they don't even know me.

Is that the 'fairy way'? We don't seem to be better than human savages. Race, as a problem, is that happening? Can we be more of a human cliche?

I guess the rumors are true. We, the fairy folk, are falling under human influence. We got too close to them over the last decade, and this is the price we have to pay.

I know it may sound like I am making excuses, but it is the truth. We could all feel a slight shift, but we all thought that the influence was minimal.

Right now, I am pretty sure we were mistaken.

Is it too late to change anything? I honestly don't know.

My 'brilliant' idea is to wait and see. At least I have my best friend by my side.

Also, my non-fairy friends don't seem to be under the human spell. Unlike the fairies, they are nothing but supportive.

What I can't understand is how this can be happening. For centuries, we, fairies, have been the light that others looked upon and now...Now, I am not sure what we are. The light is slowly dwindling.

Still, I have Van and my best friend, and of course my wonderful animal friends, I should be grateful.

What makes me feel a bit better is the fact that at least the others are not violent or hurtful (on purpose). There are just the angry stares, the hatred in their eyes, and general avoidance of my presence.

It's so odd, to see those horrible expressions on beautiful fairy faces. In the whole history of fairy lives, I don't think those kinds of expressions were ever recorded. It is strange to think that I caused them.

One day I overheard a conversation that shocked me more than it should have. Two fairies expressed their opinions that I had gone mad, and that I should have been exiled the moment I told them about my 'unnatural' relationship. I flew away from there as fast as I could, as tears streamed down my face.

When Van saw me that night, he didn't ask any questions, he didn't have to. Instead of trying to console me with words that meant nothing, he held me in his arms and kissed away every tear that I shed.

He was furious that they made me cry, but he knew me well enough not to suggest anything radical.

Instead, he held me a bit tighter and whispered sweet words of love in a warm and soothing voice. We stayed like that for a long time, and I must admit it made me feel so much better.

Van could be an idiot sometimes, but when I truly need him, he is always there, and I love him even more for it.

We both knew that whatever the fairies were saying they couldn't do anything about it, not yet. My situation was a precedent, so they were still debating what to do about me.

How about just let me be? Let me live and love the way I see fit.

Since my fairy family started causing me nothing by pain, Linky and I, and sometimes some animal friends, started spending a lot of our free time hanging out with the elves.

In the past, fairies and elves rarely communicated with each other, but elves didn't seem to mind our company. We had a lot of fun teaching each other some entertaining activities and just having fun.

The best part for me is that I can finally hold hands with Van, and I can kiss Van whenever I want (which I do quite often). His friends keep teasing us, because we are always next to each other, whispering, or kissing, but I don't mind. It is obvious that they are just joking around, and that they are not mean about it.

They just love seeing us blush when we get caught making out when we should be doing something else, like showing them particular dance moves or explaining a rule of a fairy game.

Suffice it to say, that we often get carried away and forget about the people around us.

One time we were showing them some fairy dances, and somehow we turned it into one of the elves' passionate dance, and before long we were kissing passionately in front of everyone.

"Ahm..." Linky cleared her throat.

"That is not exactly how the dance goes." She said as we blushed, and everyone else burst out laughing.

Still, we didn't mind, we could feel them accepting us, and that was the best feeling ever. Well, let me finish on this happy note.

I promise that next time I will tell you a bit more about me and Van, the beginnings.

Goodnight.