Sex Education (re-post)

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

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As usual, Spencer arrived promptly at the time Emily asked him to. He usually came in his work attire, but this evening he actually looked casual. He was wearing khakis and a black t-shirt. It was nothing fancy, but she'd never seen him out of a suit or sweater vest before.

He gave his little awkward wave and smiled when she swung the door open. She loved that even though he was gaining confidence sexually, he was still the sweet Spencer she always knew. She closed the door behind him and turned around to see him watching her nervously.

"You ok?" she asked furrowing her brow.

"Yea, I ... uh ... I ... Morgan he, um, he was talking about something the other day and I don't really know," he said turning a deep shade of red.

"Spence, don't be embarrassed to ask me to do something. This might sound bad, but there isn't much I won't do," Emily said.

"It just ... I don't know ... I think as great as this is, it still sort of feels ... wrong," he said frowning.

"Oh?" Emily said surprised.

"Not you! It's not you at all! I don't mean it like that. I just, I'm an old-fashioned kind of guy and well I always pictured sex as something I special I'd share with the person I love. Oh, man this is not coming out right at all," he said getting frustrated.

Emily walked closer and grabbed Spencer's hand.

"It's ok, I understand," she said gently.

"Emily, I care about you deeply. Honestly, sometimes more than I probably should," he said which surprised her. "I mean you can't be surprised by that. You are gorgeous and smart and funny and fierce. I know someone hurt you, but I hope someday you can find the strength to open your heart to let someone love you."

Emily was taken back by his words. They both stood there in an awkward silence.

"Maybe I should just go," Spencer said staring down at her.

Emily wasn't sure when exactly it happened, but when she looked up they were incredibly close. She could feel his breath on her face. Her heart was racing. She didn't understand what was happening to her.

"I ... " she swallowed hard. "You don't have to, if you don't want to." Her words were barely above a whisper.

Spencer took a step closer.

"I don't want to," he whispered back.

He slowly and hesitantly moved closer. His mouth inched its way to her. Just when Emily closed her eyes and felt his lips hovering over hers, her phone rang. The two jumped back in surprise as Emily fumbled to pull the phone from her pocket.

She looked at the caller and then at Spencer who was running his fingers through his hair. She could tell he was trying to digest what just happened between them.

"I'm sorry, I need to take this," Emily said before she walked off.

Spencer nodded, but couldn't find the words to speak. Had he just tried to make a move on Emily? Sure, they'd been having sex, but that was a friendship thing. This – well, this was different. This was more intimate and full of desire.

He had to have been wrong, there was no way Emily could be interested in him. She was just trying to calm him down and start another lesson. She made it clear she didn't want to be with him or anyone else for that matter.

This was bad. He needed to leave. Just as he made up his mind, Emily walked back into the room. The thought of leaving vanished when he saw the look on her face. She was closing her phone and staring at the floor.