miniskirt.

eighty eight

jennie💋
hey gurl
i got a favor to ask you

dahyun🤪
yie yie im listening homie

jennie💋
seen taehyung around?

dahyun🤪
errr
yur i have
my girl just texted saying he was at this pharmacy she works at
*insert address* here ya go sis

jennie💋
goat
thank youu bb ily

dahyun🤪
you welcome sis

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jennie had debated on texting the place to sooyoung, but in the end decided against it. she decided to deal with this on her own.

a pharmacy. why would he go to a pharmacy and just turn off his location?

it didn't add up.

besides, what was going on with him? they hardly spoke to each other in math anymore...jennie wasn't lying when she said that she kind of missed his dorky side.

she always thought he was being cringey with his jokes, but why did she miss them now?

paying the uber driver, she shut the car door behind her, then glanced down at her phone for the shop name.

jennie didn't have to look very far, for in this part of town, there was a park near the side of the pier. it was cloudy outside, about the rain with a strong wind.

he was sitting at a bench, just staring at the cloudy sky and the grey water in the horizon. the brunette sighed, shuffling her hands into her pockets.

"taehyung."

he seemed to have ignored her, simply glancing downwards. she approached the park bench, sitting down next to him.

"sooyoung was worried."

"about who? me?"

"yes." jennie looked away from him. "so was i."

"don't say things you don't mean."

"i'm not. i was worried. i thought that—sooyoung thought you might..."

"kill myself?" the male next to her forced out a small chuckle. "don't worry, she wasn't wrong about that either."

when he looked up to the horizon, jennie noticed his moist cheeks, how he had been crying recently.

"even if you don't want to talk, i'm here." jennie sighed. "i know we haven't talked much lately, how i've been pretty unpredictable with you and i'm sorry. but at the end of the day, you are my friend tae, and i do hate to see you like this."

there was a long silence after what she said. he was thinking, and so was she. what was this anymore?

things weren't necessarily going wrong for her. she had an amazing guy as a boyfriend, she wasn't confused about how she felt for once. but thinking about everything else made her want to cry.

her friends weren't okay. she knew lisa was crying on the inside all the time, and not just because of jungkook. her family life was getting worse, and as much as lisa refused to talk about it, say that she's fine, jennie knew she wasn't.

and chaeyoung dealt with an authoritarian household. she sacrificed so many things for her family; mainly being her freedom and happiness. she didn't have many of the liberties that the rest of them did, she concealed her pains with a smile. and the one thing that forced her to forget about the woes and stresses of her life, the pressure of simply being her—he was gone too. and she didn't even get to say goodbye.

then seulgi. she struggled with a close-minded mother, and a silent father who wouldn't open up about his thoughts. she wanted to be honest because honesty was the best policy but how could she surface the truth if she had to give up everything in return? she was scared of not being accepted, being scorned by her mother.

and park sooyoung. she had a sick sister at the hospital, one who was terminally ill. that alone took a toll on the girl, and she never liked to talk much about it, it was enough for sooyoung to burst into tears. it's why she suddenly went all emo, just thinking of her family and how broken it is. her parents are hardly around anymore, leaving sooyoung solely to pay for her younger sister's privilege to life, her medical bills, treatments, medications.

and jeon jungkook was confused. and scared. throwing on an image that he was a comedic fuckboy, who didn't give two shits about what people thought. who didn't bother with flirting with girls because he was having too much of a good time flirting and teasing his math teacher, just to hide the fact that he indeed did have feelings. he was probably the most sensitive out of them all. so when lisa broke up with him, it's like he completely broke. when taehyung and him argued, he cried. he cried every single time, but didn't know what to do to make himself feel better.

lastly, park jimin. he was so insecure about himself it was frightening. such an intelligent boy, who knew what exactly he wanted. he always joked that he was the most boyfriend material out of all of them, because he knew how to properly treat a girl. which was true, chaeyoung had been his princess. only he knew that, not even her. but how could he love a girl when he didn't even love himself? he was so busy helping others that he forgot about himself. and it would only destroy him in the end.

that truly sucked. it sucked for all of them. everyone believed that they all had this amazing life. that is must be so much fun being them, because they were all so close, had the most amazing times together...

"i'm just this huge screw-up." taehyung finally uttered, sighing deeply. "there's just so many things that i've done wrong. and so many people i've hurt because of my actions."

"you, jungkook, lisa, jimin..." he lowered his eyes. "i just feel alone. there's no one that understands. no one i can talk to, because who is there that i can talk to that i haven't already hurt? who really understands me?"

"taehyung—"

her eyes softened more when a tear snaked down his cheek.

"i feel like shit. it's an ultimate low for me when i just wake up and the first thing i wonder is 'why the hell am i alive?' i can't keep dealing with this. it hurts."

"some people might be wondering why am i overreacting over these things, like it's not even a big deal. well, it does matter to me." taehyung whispered, sniffling.

"i don't know how to restart. i don't know what to do. i feel stuck jennie."

"you're not alone." she scooted closer to him, wrapping her arm around his shoulder.

it was sad to see a guy cry, much worse than when a girl cried—but it was heartbreaking when taehyung cried.

this wasn't the guy she knew. certainly not the same boy who used to joke around persistently for a pic of nudes. jennie thought she was the only one who had hurt...but she hadn't even considered how taehyung had felt throughout all of this.

this is what he had turned into? she felt guilty, in all honesty.

"tae, don't worry. i'm here."

those were all the words he needed to hear, for the taller boy collapsed into her comforting embrace, tired of keeping his emotions bottled up.

a/n: i just wanted to show that boys also have feelings too. guys can cry too, and i wanted to show that side of taehyung to y'all (he's our lil sensitive bean who was hurting this whole time, but chose not to tell anyone)

and no, this wasn't exactly about him hurting over jennie. it's just everything in general.

yo y'all i almost cried while writing this, like this felt lowkey intense