Anxiety

Activities

When your in a rough patch in life you don't really feel like doing much especially when your anxiety is worse becuase that makes everything seem impossible. Recently I've been in that rough patch where my anxiety is worse, I'm struggling to eat and drink plus I can't sleep very well and I'm exhausted but last week I pushed and worked really hard to go to see Brian Cox (he's a professor and a physicist) an hour away from home in an arena (Manchester Arena) to talk about Cosmology in the dark. My anxiety is always and has always been worse in the dark I haven't got a clue why but there we go. At the beginning of the week I hadn't been outside for two weeks, hadn't eaten or drunk much and was sleeping during the day and being awake during the night. I struggled and it hurt but I went out when I was most settled then worked towards going out at night. I tried to eat more or more filling foods, drunk as much as I could and I got there. I hadn't eaten for a good few hours when we arrived so my throat kept on almost closing and I almost fainted but I didn't we got some merchandise (which is stupid expensive I mean don't they think the ticket prices will get them money?!) And finally sat down (sitting seriously helps) and I really enjoyed the show being surrounded by fellow nerds. I'm suffering for it now and I'm more tired and struggling more with food and drink and having more anxiety attacks but now I sleep during the night and I'm so so so proud of myself for going and pushing threw it and I'd do it again in a heart beat. I'd be really dissapointed and ashamed if I didn't go because I would of let my anxiety win. The point of this story is, is that just becuase your in a rough patch and you don't want to do anything and you feel like you can't do anything doesn't mean you shouldn't try. It will be painful and you'll want to give up trust me I know but trust me when I say it's so worth it. That feeling when you've done it and you didn't let it win its the best feeling and after yeah you'll regret it becuase of the pain but remind yourself of what you've done and is proud you should be of yourself becuase you did it! You'll recover, you'll always recover it just might take awhile but when you are better you'll look back and that feeling of accomplishment will wash over you again and you'll be proud that you fought all the way threw and came out victorious. Also if you do something challenging rest afterwards you might think you can do everything but it will hit you like a ton of bricks a few days after but to be honest I wouldn't change it for the world becuase I got to do something I've always wanted to do.