Anxiety

I'm back

Hello everyone. After my last update on here I have been through a fair bit. I decided to take a break from here and only go on Tumbr occasionally and leave all social media for the time being. The last update I had, I weighed around 35 kilos. Now I weigh 52. I am so proud of how far I have come and that I took time for myself to get back on track.

Now I'm studying for two exams (literature and language) and also studying maths which is my most hated topic if I'm being honest. I'm doing it though because unfortunately it is necessary. I'm also furthering my photography with going out and taking photos when I can and I'm planning on going and doing a photography course next year. Then doing Literature, History and Classics to maybe become a proffesor in one, two or all of those subjects.

I'm sure the pandemic and hit alot of you hard and I'm not about to talk about that now because I'm one of the lucky ones who wasn't really affected because as I mentioned in earlier chapters I've been out of a social life for 4 years. I understand alot of people aren't in my situation and I know it must be so hard for you and I'm here if you need to talk.

I am so grateful that I've had the opportunity to write down my thoughts and share them with you. Even if no one reads this that is absolutely fine because I made this for me, but if it helps any of you to read a part of my journey as it happens and now read this where I'm finally feeling free (my life isn't perfect and it probably will never be) to be myself and understand that yes I have anxiety, yes I have an eating disorder that flares up from time to time and yes my Autism will bring more obstacles I will need to deal with but I wouldn't have it any other way.

As you read this you will probably wonder how I'm studying lit since my writing here is appalling but in all honesty I just write it and don't read it, which is probably quite stupid of me.

I don't know how many more updates I'll make but hopefully there will be a few. Maybe I'll update on the things I've achieved if my modesty permits me. The possibilities are endless for me and all of you because you are stronger than you believe. We have been through hell and have/will come out on the other side which makes you pretty invincible if you ask me.

All the best to you wherever you are and whatever you are doing - Jorja