Purify me

2/8/19

I'm so desperate

To keep bleeding,

But all the blades

Are hidden.

I think I'm going insane.

I had the best day

And I still

Want to die

In a puddle

Of blood and pills.

My mind is at war

With itself

Voices and thoughts

Flying around

Before I can process them.

I can't hear your voice anymore,

All I hear

Are the voices in my head

Screaming black and red lies

About you.

I need to hear your voice again,

Your cotton candy voice

That used to take away the voices,

Or at least made them quiet

Because you proved them wrong.

I dont think I can keep fighting

But I can't have you fight for me,

Tonight might be

My last stand.