I've honestly never felt better.
Everything is looking up right now.
Although,
I'm numb.
I can't actually feel anything.
You could slap me and I
Wouldn't
Feel
It.
I tried to get high off pain meds and damn near poisoned myself.
Drinking any alcohol that comes my way, even if I'll get alcohol poisoning.
I don't care.
I just want to fucking feel something for once.
I wish I could be in your arms,
Talking about my problems,
Drinking tea.
But that can't happen.
Not with my parents nagging that I shouldn't be with you.
I don't care anymore.
I just want to be with you.
I know it's not good for me to be so dependent on someone but I can't help it.
I need you.
I don't need anyone else but you.
You know that, don't you?
I'm so distant and out of focus.
My mind goes blank when I'm with you and I just want to cuddle up next to you and talk about mundane shit.
I wish I didn't have so many addictions and vices.
Clay.
Drinking.
Smoking.
All the bad shit you can think of, basically.
I need a fucking break.
m.r
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