I Think I Love You (Jally)

Chapter 5

Dallys POV

What am I doing?

I spooning a guy, my closes friend, Johnny Cade.

But I didn't wanna let go, its wrong. This is all wrong. I'm Dallas Fucking Winston! No one fucks with me, I always get what I want and I take care of myself and myself only.

Now why did I wanna protect Johnny, hold Johnny, be with Johnny.

I knew I could have Johnny, I always get what I want. But I don't want him because I can have him, it shouldn't work that way.

So I'll be fine, just laying here holding him in my arms.

It was weird because Johnny was asleep, we I was pretty sure he was asleep.

I honestly didn't have enough patients for him to fall asleep. I just wanted to hold him, and he probably thought I was asleep anyway.

But I wasn't, I was wide awake holding Johnny.

I soon began to feel Johnmy toss in turn in my arms, it must just be a night mare so I shook it lightly and wispered in his ear,"It's okay Johnny, I'm here.".

Johnny then rolled his whole body around so he was facing me, still fast asleep.

So I moved my hand from his waste to his face and began to rub circles on his soft cheeks,"Shhhh, its okay Johnny."

This began to calm him down, but he moved closer to me. So close that it felt like we were one, which I would only ever admit this to my self, but I wish we were one.

Johnny then began to talk in hia sleep, it was weird. I've never herd anybody talk in their sleep, but I guess this is the first time I have ever slept with someone,"Dally, please stay!"

I was kinda of shocked by what he was screaming. It was full of him yelling at me not to leave, or to stay.

Why would I ever leave him?

This concerned mes so I began to shake him more,"Johnny wake up, Johnny."

His eyes then snapped open, I could only tell by the way his face looked in the moon light.

Even though he was scared shitless he still looked adorable.

As soon as he saw my face he started to calm down, he knew I will always protect him. He was the ONLY person I love.

"Sorry Dal, did I wake you?", Johnny says still calming down.

I shook my head no assuming he could see me, he probably couldn't,"No you didn't, I was already up."

Johnny began to sit up, so I sat up with him.

"Dal its cold in your room at night.", Johnny began to complain right away.

I shrugged my shoulders,"I guess, I mean I'm used to it man. It is a little cold, you could borrow my jacket to sleep in if you want to?"

Johnny looked at me and thought about it for a minute. He then shook his head yes.

I leaned over and grabbed my leather jacket that I sat by my bed.

It wasn't even a bed in all honesty, just a matress of the floor.

"Here man.", I said handing him my brown leather jacket.

I would never admit this to him, or any of the other boys, but Johnny looked really good in my clothing. It kinda turns me on.

"Are you tired Dal?", Johnny began to ask.

I shook my head no for the hundredth time it felt like,"Nah man, I don't sleep much at night."

"Yeah, I don't either since I usually sleep in the lot.", he stopped then began to start back up, "You probably already knew that."

It was true, I knew. Hell god and everybody knew! But who could blame him? His parents were peices of shit that I would like to punch in the throat.

"Yah, I know Johnny."

We didn't say anything for a few seconds. Neither of us knew what to say, what do you talk about at 1 in the morning?

"Dal, where am I supposed to go tomorrow?", Johnny finally spoke up, breaking the silence between us.

In honesty I figured Johnny would just stay with me. There really was no where else for him to go.

I guess I didn't respond back enough to Johnnys statement,"Sorry Dal, I don't know-"

"Your staying here Johnny."

He didn't question it, what I said is what was gonna happen. He knew not to question me.

"For how long?"

I looked at him weirdly, why did he not understand that he could stay here forever?

"Forever if you want, I don't care honestly."

I saw a smile grow on him, even if it was for a second he still had one.

"Thanks Dal, sorry for intruding and shit."

What,"Nah man, I don't mind. Besides its boring livin here alone anyways."

This didn't make him smile as much, but I knew it was still a smile from the fluttering my heart did in my chest.

I hated that, I didn't like that one person had so much control over my emotions.

"Dal, why does the moon shine?"

I was very confused, Johnny knows I never made it through middle school.

"I don't know, why do you think?", I asked trying to figure out what he thought.

"I don't know Dal, I just don't."

Of course neither of us knew, we weren't that smart. If we didn't get soemthing in school the teachers wouldn't care. We were hoods, we didn't matter to most people. But I don't care, Johnny matters to me. Thats what I care about.

"Johnny why do you care? Its just the moon."

He snaps his head and looks at me,"Dal, have you ever just looked at the moon? Or even a sunset? They are beautiful, the show me theres still a lot of good in the world. Ponyboy and I talk about sunsets and stuff like this sometimes."

Of course Ponybitch would talk about this stuff, hes such a sensative kid thay wants to be us. Which I don't know why, he has a fucking brain. He needs to get out of this town and out of this life.

"Yes Johnny, I have seen a sunset and I see the moon every night. Just don't think about it that way"

Johnny nods his head like he knew what I was talking about. I knew he didn't.

I knew there was goodness in the world at that was Johnny. He was put in such a shitty sisuation with abusive parents and always getting shit throw at him, yet he still finds the goodness in this god for saken world.

He is everything I could have became, I was put in an almost same sisuation. Yet I turned to shit, maybe this is why I love him.

But its not a romantic love, maybe I could feel that way but this was different.

This was I would do anything for him, I couldn't live with out him. Its like if Johnny died I would kill myself, Johnny was the only good I have in this shitty world.

"Well thats nice Johnny, its cool that you guys talk about those things together."

He then smiled that bug heart fluttering smile at me again,"Yeah Dal.", Johnny than began to start falling asleep.

This time I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him close to me, I knew he wad asleep. But I knew he wasn't gonna move away.

Both of us just wanted to lay there, him in my embrace with his fingers tracing figures on my chest.

It was soothing and I soon began to fall asleep with Johnny in my arms, where he needed to be.

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Heres Chapter 5!!!

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