The perks of a temporary life

toxic liquids and lit candles which turn out to be cigarettes

- It's 3:00 a.m. and my body is tired but my head is still spinning around like a helicopter without a pilot and I wish I could see myself clearly but the liquid drowns me and all my
thoughts.
I can't think
I can't think
I can't think clear thoughts because they got messed up as soon as my lips touched a glass bottle and my tongue tasted the toxic liquid which turned out to be a legal drug called „alcohol".
And it ain't that bad if you're all dizzy,
as long as you keep standing on your own feet and playing that song in repeat,
but as soon as you're alone,
it all falls apart.
Back to the start.
And you say „never again" but what you actually mean is „not today; but tomorrow is another day with full 24 hours to change that never into a 'maybe later' "

- 3:30 and you're confused
but that's what you're used to
because you overthink
& afterwards,
you overdrink

- you took a smoke,
lungs grey,
legs shake,
I think I want to take a break.

-next day
you say
I'm not okay"
and that's alright,
because the sun will rise again