Is it love? Ryan Carter - His side of the story!

Chapter 29 - Reconciliation

"Come, let me help you undress so you can take a shower. You're freezing."

"Are you joining me?" - she says in a soft and shy tone, blushing beautifully. I take a deep breath and look into her eyes - "No, Rory. I don't think I should. I'd love to, but I don't trust myself naked with you, and we need to talk, before anything else." - The look in her eyes feels disappointed, but she turns to me and fasten her hair to the side, so I can unzip her dress. I try hardest not to touch her soft skin. I'll not be able to control myself if I do. -"There." - I say letting my arms fall beside my body. She turns around and thanks me silently heading to the bathroom. I hear the shower running and decide to sit to think about how we're going to work things out now. I need to take control of our lives once more and put some things into perspective with her. 

No more than 10 minutes she's back in the living room wearing a satin robe which hugs her curves perfectly. My first instinct is to get rid of it and feel her body against mine once more. It's insane how this girl messes with my head. I feel like a horny teenager willing to have his first fuck. - "Come here, Rory. There are a few things we need to talk about. Then I'll make love to you."

She looks at me startled and silently sits beside me placing her hands on her lap. She seems embarrassed. - "What's going on Rory? Why you're not looking at me? Do you want me to go?"

"No, I just thought you'd..."

"You thought I?..."

"It's silly Ryan. I don't know how to behave around you. You send me mixed signals. I don't quite know how to take them. I'm just confused. I thought you wouldn't be here anymore when I get out of the shower, and now you're talking about making love. You see, one needs to have a crystal ball to catch up with your mood. I hardly ever know what's going on with you, in your head. You boss me around like I'm still your assistant, and here and right now I'm not."

"Fair enough."

"And I'm not willing to be just the girl you're sleeping with. It was fun, but quite frankly, I'm not that type of girl."

"Rory, we talked about it countless times. I've already told you that you're not just the girl I'm sleeping with. What else I have to do to show you how I want YOU in my life and not just the girl I'd like to fuck senseless."

"The episode in your bachelor pad didn't show me that at all." - She says in an annoyed and reproaching tone.

"Oh, come on. We're not going back there. I told you I didn't know how to deal with all of this. I was afraid, I never did this Rory, to date someone, I mean."

"You're telling me you never took any girl there." - She says turning to face me on the couch.

"Of course I took girls there. Don't put words in my mouth, Rory. I don't want to argue with you right now. I want to take you back. I told you, the first time I took you to the penthouse was by convenience. It was late, we just had had sex in my office and I was beyond horny. I wanted to spend the night with you, it wasn't enough what we did at my office, I wasn't over with you just yet, and quite frankly I guess I'll never be. The penthouse was the closest place we could stay together and no one would see us. Bringing you to a hotel room wasn't an option at that time. You are my assistant and I didn't want people talking about you or seeing us getting into a hotel room. At my place we could have a drink, eat, talk, have the amazing sex we had and I could keep you with me as long as it pleases me."

"I see... How long it Pleases you... It's always about you!" - She says looking away from me.

"I told you a thousand things, and you just listened, 'what pleases me?' Come on Rory..." - I say in an annoyed tone, getting up from the couch. She stands too and places her hand on her hips, looking furious. - "You think the world revolves around you Ryan. You think everyone should be available to you, at your freaking will, whatever and whenever it pleases you. I'm not a toy that you can use me when it's convenient for you, then dispose of me." - She then turns her back to me and pace to her kitchen counter, not that far from where I'm standing between her couch and the coffee table. - "I never said that you are. You're once more putting words into my mouth and you know that I don't appreciate it."