You Know My Name

Chapter 12

I'm re-reading this chapter and I suck at spelling so sorry if I miss a word.

How in the hell am i doing this? How have I not fainted or puked? My stomach hurts, well everything hurts.

Here I am trudging down the hall with Austin by my side carrying my books. People are staring. I am going to die. Maybe I am dead and this is hell? Sure feels like it. How long have I been walking to my class? This is taking forever, it's like those parts in movies where the character is thinking and everything is in slow motion. I guess I could share what I am wearing since I did just go shopping. I'm wearing my new shoes, well shoe my other foot has my boot/cast on it, with my new jeans and sweater from Forever 21. It was the easiest thing to put on since it's a big sweater, the jeans were a hassle. Are we seriously still walking? Finally my class. I get to my seat and sit down, Austin gives me my stuff and leaves to his class. I'm grateful that his class is next door because then he won't be late due to me.

"Okay today we are dissecting frogs!" My science teacher exclaims. "You will work with the people at your table." I turn to face my table. I don't know any of them. I sit quietly while they assign each other jobs.

"Okay so everyone has a job except..you," the girl at my table points to me.

"What do you want me to do?" I ask her.

"You can go get the frog," She smiles, and points to the frogs laying on the front table. I just nod and get up. I limp my way over to the frog table and grab one of the pans containing the frog. I began to walk back to my table when someone else gets up to get their frog. They bump into me, sending me and the frog to the floor. The frog was fine. It slid across the floor. I however landed on the ground, unable to get up for a few seconds, my body searing with pain. The boy apologizes and helps me up, I smile at him and retrieve the frog. I then return to my snickering group, placing the frog on the table. I want to leave. I can't. I decide to put in my ear buds and let my group dissect the frog and wait for this to be over.

After the frog is finally in pieces the class is over.

I gather my stuff and leave the room. I get through my next classes slowly. Lunch comes, I eat with Austin, and for once he agrees to eat outside with me.

"Well I see why you eat out here so often," He smiles at me as he takes a bite of his apple. "It quiet, and comforting."

"Don't forget you can sit wherever you want, no groups, cliques, or clubs." I reply. Looking into his dark brown eyes. I have no idea how this happened. How did I get lucky enough to find Austin? How did I get lucky enough to have Austin care for me? How did I find happiness in my crappy life? I really like Austin, of course I would never date him. I'm done with boyfriends for a while. I wouldn't want to mess this up. I look away from him and at the glass windows behind us. "Isn't it crazy how when you look through this window you can see tons of teens living their life but everyone of them has a different one."

"It's weird to look at the cafeteria through this side, from your point of view. It's very..." He pauses. "Artistic." He smiles. I giggle at his comment.

Lunch ends and Austin and I walk to English. I take my seat and Austin sits next to me.

"OK class your project for this week is to write your essay for college. Now of course you won't be writing your actual essay, this is just practice. Your topic will be drawn from a hat. I will call you up one by one. So let's-" She is interrupted by an office aid coming in. "Taylor they need you in the counseling center." Confused I grab my books and head out and down to the counseling center. I go into the office and sit down. Mrs. Tram, my counselor turns to me.

"Taylor you aren't going to graduate." She says to me. I freeze. This can't be happening. What does she mean I'm not graduating? I have passed all of my classes with at least a B every year. I feel like I've been stabbed. I can't go to New York if I don't graduate.