Collection of My Mini Works

Dear Future Love...

All I ask is that when we meet, don't judge me for my weight nor my appearance. I've tried hard to change for everyone, but I've finally decided to do my own thing for awhile now. I've been beaten, scarred, bruised, and laughed at all my life. I've been manipulated, cheated, lied to, and filled with empty promises. Everyone once told me they were different, but eventually, their true colors showed, and I stood there, empty handed, with a broken heart. I've tried many times to forget my past, but I'm damned. I've tried so hard to keep everyone above me with a smile, but its hard once they've seen my flaws. Don't memorize my past mistakes. Don't lie about how you feel. I don't care about your past regrets, I like to look forward, not behind. If you won't push too fast, then I won't drag on too slow. Alots been on my mind, and it sickens me, but so far you've been my only cure. I'm not like all the other girls, I know that for sure. I always try my hardest to prove I am Unique and KindHearted. I try to keep all friends and no enemies. I try to understand and help out with any situation you throw at me. My personality is what everyone says makes me beautiful, and you can see it in my eyes. I'm not perfect, but I am someone worth keeping. Besides my insecurities, I'm learning to let go. I don't want to seem creepy, or awkward by writing this, but I really want you to understand. Its really hard, and its stupid to say anything, but this is who I am, and I want to, just once, be accepted by arms that won't throw me away. I apologize if I hurt you in anyway, I really don't mean to. I apologize if I end up to be a disappointment to you, just know I tried my hardest to impress you. The obstacles I climbs through mentally, daily, are challenging. I'm sorry you'll have to deal with my mental illnesses that will probably cause us to fight or misunderstand things. I will always be patient enough to work it out if you are. Please take a chance on me. I haven't met you yet, but I already love you more than you'd ever know.

Sincerely,
Your hopeless romantic