I Can't Cry on Cold Shoulders

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How were you once my friend?

Only demons whisper your inadequacies

from cold shoulders

Never will you find one speak the truth,

lest it cuts itself with its own forked tongue


Why wasn't I born the daughter my mom 

always wanted?

I can't help who I am or the quintessential 

mind that burdens me

I try and I change but it's never enough


Will I ever be enough for myself?

For others?

If only I could put on mascara and sundresses

and live like hot messes

Yet my body is a coffin that's not open casket


Do I really need to become fake 

so that I can feel more real?

I know my grandma wouldn't talk to me

Nor would my friends take me seriously

I wouldn't believe me

Sadly, I sacrifice my personal feminism for

a pessimistic piece of work


Why do I have to be? Why couldn't I have just been?

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