Secret identity

Flashback (Aaron POV)

"Listen Sia... I think it's best if we take a break. Just to see if we both really want this. I'm sorry.." I say to Sia. "Let me guess you are gonna give me the bull shit 'it's not you it's me speech.'" She says coldly. "Sia it is me." I say back. She turns away and says " Fine. Don't expect me to be okay though and act as if I'm not hurt. I can't talk right now goodbye." And she runs off. I can't stop her.. I see her run to the grocery store and then I don't see her. She didn't even look back... God that hurt so much. But I had to let her go. I'm not good enough for her. I can't give her what she wants or needs. I'm just a stupid 19 year old jock who doesn't even have a family who cares, why should she?
  It's been a month since Sia and I split. Honestly it's been the hardest month ever. Ben comes over a lot just to make sure I'm okay. "Listen man, she was the best thing you ever had. Why'd you let her go.." he says to me. I stare at him. Honestly I broke. I did start to cry. "Ben I don't know! She deserves so much better then me. I only have money because of my damn parents who don't even care about me. I don't care about myself and I couldn't bring her down. She deserves everything, and I didn't believe I could help her." Ben just gives me a sadden look. "Why don't you call her?" He says. Is he stupid? I can't do that to her! "Ben I can't do that." I say to him. Ben just pats me on the back, "Listen Aaron I know I can't say it'll get better. I can't tell you it won't hurt. Because it will hurt for a while. And I bet it hurts her as much as it does you." He is right. It hurts. It hurts a lot. I feel like The world is crashing down on me and I can't stop it. I don't even go and work out anymore. That's how depressed I am, and Ben can see it. I don't eat. I don't sleep. I go to school and look like a zombie. It's hard... I lost the only person who cared for me. And the only person I loved.. I'm so sorry Sia