Finding An Anchor

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JENPOV

     "Jen I'm really sorry but how do you know where i live"

"I find and keep people secret for a living Alex what did you expect? The house doesn't have to be registered in your name its registered in the companies name I'm the companies business partner and lawyer its my job to know everything.

"Can i kiss you?"

"Nope you lost remember"

"Don't take this the wrong way but i didn't think you were that good of an attorney.
I wasn't offended men normally under estimate me that why I always win.

"After I lost my first 3 mac- trials I never lost a case again, that why i do probono work for the people who cant fight the big dogs alone".
I've heard about that, is it true that you take 10 or more probono cases every month and that no matter the circumstances you let no one stand in for you ."

"Yes it is, I'm passionate about helping people who can't help themselves,
Are you going to invite me inside? Or we're gonna sit in the car all night?. "
He laughed
"i got so comfortable talking to you that i forgot that we're outside"
He took out his cell phone an wave it to the left side of the gate and it open. 
Oh he's into the fancy gaget shit after all they have a Tech company under their belt.
I drove in and the garage was already opened i drove right in.
The entire ground floor of the mansion is the garage,
Shit i knew he had a impressive car collection.
I park the car at a empty spot and ran out leaving him behind.

"Holy shit i knew it, i knew it i romed around checking out the cars like a excited kid But i saw uncle Jacobs car and i came to my knees it was just too much.
I popped my self down laying on the bonnet,
"Its the same color that i chose, I was fighting with Mich that day he wanted it to be blue but he went with my idea of army green.
I still have the image of him lifting me in his arm that day.
Well i was only 4 but i have a actual photograph well i have a couple of memories with him.
he would take me and Gen on road trips all the time and mich i can't quite remember his last name.
Uncle jacob would say we like each other that's why we fought  so much, i think he was right because we got play married after my 6th birthday party he was 8, i kiss him though i think i use to like the big kids, Gen never liked him.
I haven't seen him after uncle jacob died do you know him alex?" I was rambling Again
I looked up to see him crying holy shit.

" I'm sorry Alex i didn't know talking about him would hurt you."

He didn't respond he just took my hands an led me onto a lift it went one floor up.
As i step off i saw various photo portraits but the one that stood out was of the exact same photo i have.

My eyes welled up with tear as i saw the pictures of mich, Gen and I, there's a picture of me pouring paint on him i know i was a little menis.

" So you do know him", I ask Alex while smiling i turn to look at him.
He was smiling
" my name is Alex Michel Williams,uncle jacob wanted my mom to name me michel but mom like alex more so she gave me Michel as my middle name uncle jacob called my mich anyway".

" I don't know what came over me but i jump on him and started kissing him passionately.
We stumbled all over the place with us ending up on the floor.
He stopped to look in my eyes and he said "
i knew there was something about those eyes."

I got up on my knees and kneeled in-front  of him I started to stare in his eyes, a deep and unfamiliar feelings came over but some how i got flashbacks about what i saw last night an a feeling of hurt wash over me as if my facial expressions have change he asked:
"What's wrong sweetheart"
"Who's the blond"
"Are you jealous Ms MCconell"
"Damn right I am, why am I here alex you have a girlfriend so what is this?
"Sighz i have complicated feelings for you Jen and I'm now realizing its because we have a past, from the moment i met you the tension was thick between us but after i shook your hands when you skin connected with mines i felt a feeling of longing,
"I don't want to mix business with pleasure but i can't help my self around you.
I try avoiding you because i can't function or think straight after i see you,
It's like I'm trapped in a trance I don't normally do relationship but I'm not a man whore either.
The blond is my paid companion."
I was lost for words but I really appreciate him being straight up with me.

But how do i reply i don't even know my feelings and i hate to express them.
That's the main reason me and tom didn't workout i liked the sex and how it makes me feel but i couldn't connect.

He sat there searching my face for am reply but i was blank.
I looked down on the floor this man as just showed me a part of his weakness but after how deno continue to pry on my weakness and i hate how that makes me feel.
with alex how do i muster the  courage to show him who i am.
How do i open up?
How do i show him the real me am i even ready?
I can feel the sadness pushing off him.
"I'm sorry Alex but i think i should go."

"Are you sure?" he said sounding more sad than id like an i felt a cramping pain in my heart to see him like that.

I stood up an took him hands. I pull him towards the nearest bedroom but he stopped me.

" let's go to my room" i smile. He open the door for me.
I stepped inside and looked around it was neat an the interior design was good I think we use the same designer. I removed my slippers.

"Run us a bath i said", he left instantly i open the drapes and looked out side the house was on a hill I could see all of Eastside New York from here it was beautiful.

" I baught this house after i sign my first billion dollar deal.
I looked over my shoulder and saw him standing there.
I turned around slowly and unzipped my jumpsuit as it fall to the ground I push him back slightly and walk out of my clothing I was now standing before him in nude matching underwear.
I unbutton his shirt them released him from his throusers.

He lead me to the bathroom it was breath taking. It's was almost as large a the room it was painted black, everything including the bathroom fixtures, tub, sink, bath and basin's were white.

  He took him boxers off without his eyes leaving mines I Adverted my gages to  search his body with my eyes I look at his tattoos.
I admire how him muscle would flex as  his arm moves gosh he's sexy.
I took my undies off and walk towards him I can tell he is nervous.
I took hold of his an hands an we both got inside the tub.

I let him lay down first them I laid on top of him.
I use my index finger to play with his ears and ran them alone his face.

" You know I dream of moments like this all the time" I was taken back a little hearing him say that.
" Yah right",
" I'm serious Jeneève.
Ever since that night at the boxing yard, as I step inside this house its like I'm seeing a ghost of you everywhere, Thinking of you messed up my whole focus.
"I think about you a lot too, I don't like talking about my feelings it's hard for me to open up. I don't think I know how.
"You don't have to worry about opening up to me I'll never hurt you I promise, I don't know what's going with me but it's hard for me to focus when I'm around you. It's like I'm in a paralyzing state of mind I literally feel like holding my breath."
" You're making me blush I can see you have a way with words, You're a business man afterall."
"I'm serious we don't have to be in a relationship just yet, We don't even have to have sex I'll wait forever I don't care. Just don't hurt me".

"Okay I won't"

Hey guys sorry  for the late update I feel like I'm always apologizing, hope you like this chapter I'm gonna need someone to do my edits😎
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I kept this as is so you guys can see how long I wrote this chapter 🥴