Finding An Anchor

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ALEXPOV

       It's been over a month since i last saw Jeneeve I've been working in Thailand on a upcoming shipping company to ship heavy duty things like steel, big equipments and heavy machinery.
I have to be here for a little while to make sure everything runs smoothly.
I wasn't planning on staying so long but i don't really want to be in New York right now.
A Couple  days before I confirmed my trip I went to see jenevee at her apartment I just showed up and Deno was there and shirtless too at that.

I just left without saying anything. She tried calling a couple of times but I didn't answer there's nothing she could really say. 

I've called Kera to come here a few times, she didn't hesitate she came an satisfied my needs collected what she wanted and left.

I found myself thinking about Jen while having sex with Kera when I try not to think about her i can't get it up that as never happened to me before.

I just feel betrayed i really like Jen and the night she spent over at my house we talked bout ourselves and the life we wanted for ourselves then went to bed.
She didn't mention Deno and i didn't know how to bring him up.
I know they have some kind of history I can't stand it when he's around her.
Omg she drive me crazy.
Sighz
      It's actually 2am in the morning but instead of sleeping i'm thinking about her a lot.
I want to hear her voice but I don't want to call. I'm gonna call her. I sound like a total obsesses physco.
I dail her number and waited for her to answer.

"Hello" I heard her soft sweet voice and got paralyze.
"Alex if you don't speak i'm gonna hang up I was in a very important meeting which I am about rapt up.

"Could you call me back after please". I was able to whisper."

"Okay give me 15 to 20 minutes" she hang up after saying that.

I realize I've fallen bad for this woman.
My assistant told me she as been handling things really well And got us a huge win against a rival company in a lawsuit.

     I don't know if it's just me but i love a female boss.
I learnt that her mom was the one to help my father start his business giving him 40% of her trust found when they left law school. I also heard her grandparents are really wealthy.

I also heard things didn't go so well between Mariah and her parents because they didnt want her to Marry Tomas so they disowned her. Must of had some fellow waiting for an arranged marriage.

My father always wanted to be a business man like his dad but his father wanted him to study law, he was cheated out of his business dew to the fact that he didn't really know the laws of running a business.

My grandparents tried hard for their kids despite the fact that they struggle a lot.

I also learnt that my mom, dad and Jeneeve mom's Mariah when to Harvard together they were good friend and it was said that they taught Uncle Jacob and her was gonna get married.

They seemed very close even though he was a lot older than her. but he came out as gay and she loved his bestfriend who was Tomas i would like to meet her family.

My parents wont say anything other than she should tell me herself because it a private matter.

Jen doesn't talk about her family at all and i want to respect her privacy by not asking and not try to dig into anything.

The ringing of my phone brought me back out of my taughts i look to see Jen's face on the screen.
I answered immediately.

"Hey beautiful" I spoke up first. I can tell she's smiling.

" I think you're bipolar"
i had to laugh at that,

"Why'd you say that for?"

"Now you wonna talk after i tried calling on numerous occasions but you decline my calls?"

"How do you think i felt after seeing my wife with another man?, and to top things off he was shirtless an your hair look like he was playing in it.
I love you're hair btw!"
She was silent too silent for my liking.

"Jen?"

" What time is its there right now?" she trying to change the convo but im not letting it go.

" it's 2:56 am,"

" Wow how are you not sleeping? She asked.

" Taughts of you and another man keeps me up at nights i haven't had a proper sleep since i got here."
Why do i always say everything when i'm talking to her its like I can't lie i have to be myself.

"Are you sure it's not the blonde? she ask boldly.

" Why you keep talking about her and don't want to talk about your mans?"

"Sighz, Deno was my first everything".

" Oh so you love him then?" I Think my heart just broke.

"I use to think I do after he propose, but after he did it the second and third time whenever it's convenient for him. It became a practice for him. He'd say he won't wait for me forever and would act like no one would love me like he can.
Everything is a statergy for him, Saying no to him is like telling him he has fail at something.
The reason why i looked so scruffy that night is because we were having a fight,
He was drunk an came onto me a little too strong an i had to hit him.
Unpleasant words were exchange i gave back his mothers ring and told him if he came more than 15 yard in my direction i will file a restraining order."

I think relief just washed over me.
"Did he hurt you?" She went silent.
" jen i swear to God i will kill that mf for putting his hands on you.

"It's fine Alex I'm a big girl it really is okay".

I will kill him i didn't say that out loud.

"I think you should get some rest"
she said.

"I wanna talk to you"
I said even though i was getting sleepy, Its 3:40am for me and 2:40 in the afternoon for her.

"Give me a minute."
she said i could hear her talking to her assistant.
After a couple of minutes she came back.

"How may i help you Mr Williams." she asked

"Can i see you Jen?"

"Youre like millions of miles aways Alex."

I press to request a video call i heard her say oh before i saw her beautiful face.

She was looking sad, her face looked drained even though she was smiling i could tell she was really unhappy.

"Is everything okay baby?" i ask
She changed her expression so quick i could tell something was wrong.

"I'm fine Alex."

"I don't think you are honey, is there anything i can do,Would you like me to come home?"

"I said i was okay, can you just leave it alone. I have a meeting to get to I'll talk to you some other time."

With that she hang up but i was hurt after she said that.

I think I should give her space for a while.
Thinking of her like that made my eyes tear up.
I tried my best to hold it together.

This project will take maybe 9 months to a year to finish i think i should spend that time here and make sure all runs smoothly.  
there's not really anything for me in New York.  

I rolled over on my side and hug my pillow i think it's time for bed.....

Hey guys thanks for reading
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