Hopeful

Wrong

Why do I always seem to do the wrong thing?

Why do I say the wrong thing?

Do the wrong thing? 

Act the wrong way?

I'm crying at how much I've done wrong

I messed up

A lot

I pushed you away and I feel horrible

I wish I could go back in time and change what happened

I wish I hadn't pushed you away

I wish that I didn't have to be the person that I am

I always mess everything up

I messed up when I was little and I'm sorry

I seem to push people away

Or maybe they just didn't care in the first place

But my heart aches at how I've acted

I wish I could apologize and talk to you

I'm sorry for being me

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done

I'm sorry for being harsh

I'm sorry for being annoying

I wish I could be the girl that you all wanted me to be

I wish I could be the girl that I wanted to be

I wish I could disappear so that you wouldn't have to deal with me

I wish I could let you forget me so you wouldn't have my problems to deal with

My problems or me

I wish I could be better

I wish I could let you know how much you mean to me

I wish I could say how much I wish that it hadn't happened

You tried to help

But I had to be stupid

I pushed you away

I'm sorry

You're probably mad

You have a right to be

But you also have a right to know why

So just let me know when you want to talk

If you ever do

And if you're mad at me or hurt

I just want you to know how much I'm sorry 

I'm sorry for being an idiot

I'm sorry for being harsh

I'm sorry for being annoying

I'm sorry for pushing you away

I guess this is my way of saying that you mean so much to me

I would die for you

So I'm sorry...