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thirty six

chapter thirty six:-

stella's pov:-

i woke up the next morning with red and puffy eyes. calum was still next to me, but he wasn't sleeping.

"morning." i gave him a small smile.

"oh, you're finally awake!" he pulled me into a hug. "how are you?"

i laughed, "i'll be better."

"i just wanna let you know that everyone in this room knows about michael except michael.." calum said worriedly.

"oh." i didn't know what to say, so i just stood up and headed to the bathroom.

i quickly washed my face, put my hair up in a bun and left the bathroom.

"my toothbrush is in michael's room." i groaned.

"he's still sleeping," calum said. "i can get it for you?"

he stood up and was about to leave the room.

"that's okay, i'll go get it."

i knew i was going to regret this, but i cant lock myself up in a bedroom the entire time. plus, i had to leave in three hours, so i had to leave the room sooner or later.

i slowly walked into michael's room, he was still sleeping, thank god. i walked into the bathroom, picked up my toothbrush and started to head out when i heard his voice.

"stella?"

oh, shit.

i acted like i didn't hear him, and continued walking, but he called me again.

"stella, where are you going?" he asked, feeling confused. "wait, why are you wearing calum's shirt?"

i turned around so i was now facing him.

"please, do not talk to me."

i turned back around and left the room. i started running to calum's room and slammed the door shut.

"i guess michael's awake?" calum gave me a sad look.

i nodded, not saying a word.

i walked back into the bathroom and brushed my teeth, and then left my toothbrush in calum's bathroom. i walked back out and noticed michael sitting with calum. i let out a long breath.

"stella." michael stood up, walking to me. "i was drunk, baby, i'm sorry. please forgive me."

"really?" i looked at him, feeling shocked.

did he really expect me to forgive him just like that?

"i know you won't forgive me right now, but please," he begged. "think about it. i was drunk. i didn't even know that happened until calum told me! you know i would never do that to you!"

"but you did," i answered. "you cheated, i don't care if you were drunk or sober, you still did it. and you didn't even care when i walked into the room and saw you two!"

"i didn't mean it!" he yelled.

"i don't care!" i yelled back, getting angry at him. "right now, i don't care if you meant it or didn't mean it! you still did it, and i'm not ready to forgive you right now!"

because of all the yelling, everyone was now in calum's room, watching michael and i fight. emily, gabi, luke and ashton. everyone was here.

"you can't just forget everything good i did for you, and punish me for one bad thing i did!" michael yelled.

"oh, so now it's my fault." i gave him a sarcastic laugh.

he sighed, placing his hands on my shoulders and pulling me closer, but i pushed him away.

"do not touch me." i warned him. "from now on, there has to be a distance between me and you. i do not forgive you, i need time to think on my own."

"please, stella." he cried.

my heart shattered into a million pieces when i noticed the tears in his eyes, but i couldn't just forgive him. i wanted to, but i couldn't.

"i'm sorry, michael." i gave him a pat on the shoulder. "right now, we can't be together. we need to take a break."

"you can't b-break up w-with me, stella." he broke down. "i l-love you, please."

"i'm sorry." i apologized to him, and then walked away.

everyone stayed in the room with michael while i walked into his room so i could pack my stuff. when i walked inside, i sat on the floor and broke down. i couldn't stop myself from crying. a few minutes later, i heard everyone walking into the room and sitting down on the ground next to me.

"i'm so sorry about what happened, stel." i heard gabi's voice.

"it was his fault, love," emily started. "but just remember he loves you, okay?"

"he's an idiot, stel," ashton said. "he was drunk. it was all his fault, but don't do anything you're going to regret, okay?"

"i l-love him, ash." i cried. "i still c-can't believe h-he did this t-to me."

someone pulled me into a hug, and i knew it was luke. i hugged him back and continued crying.

"i'll pack your stuff, okay?" emily rubbed my back and then stood up, walking to my bag.

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we were now at the airport, we were finally going back to new york. i won't be able to see the guys again for a few months. everyone was here, including michael. he was standing behind us, with his hood covering his face. he didn't speak the entire ride, it was so silent.

"so, this is it." ashton sighed. "we won't see you for three months."

"i guess, yeah." i smiled, pulling him into a hug. "i'm gonna miss you so much."

"i'm gonna miss you too." he hugged me back tightly. "take care, okay? and if you need anything, text me. at anytime. i'll always be there for you, the guys will be there too."

"thank you ash."

i pulled away and walked to calum, hugging him.

"i still have your shirt," i whispered in his ear, causing him to laugh.

"you can keep it, it looked better on you anyway." he pulled away while smiling at me.

after hugging everyone, i stood in front of michael. he stared at me and i just stared back, not knowing what to say.

"i'm gonna miss you," he whispered.

"i'm gonna miss you too," i answered back.

"can i at least get a hug?" he asked.

i stood there for a second, and then pulled him into a hug. he hugged me back, burying his face onto my neck.

"please text me, think about everything," he whispered. "try to forgive me, please. i know i don't deserve your forgiveness, i cheated on you and actually had the nerves to yell at you. i'm sorry."

"i'll make sure i text you, michael." i smiled, pulling away. "i don't hate you. i love you, but we need some time apart, okay?"

"i love you, stella. never forget that." he said, placing a kiss on my cheek.

"goodbye."

after emily and gabi said their goodbyes, we waved at the boys one last time and started walking to the airplane.

i knew i was going to forgive michael, because i just love him so much. but i couldn't do it now. right now, i can't even look at him without seeing him on top of a different girl.

i'm gonna miss talking to him, but right now, i have to stay away from him.

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