green + blue {not to be finished}

louis

i shudder as i step into the brisk autumn air outside my apartment complex, the fresh tears frozen on my cheeks, sticking to my stubble. i run a hand through my floppy fringe on top of my head, in an attempt to brush it away from my dull eyes. i don't know why but i feel like i change alongside the seasons, this summer was so warm and full of color, full of brightness and sunshine from him... but now as the leaves fall so do my spirits, leaving me with only tears and cuts on my body. but tonight is the night i'll forget it all, tonight's the night i'm moving on.

i pull myself out of my thoughts as i run towards my car, quickly trying to avoid the cold. as soon as i duck under the door of my short car i blast the heat and the music, todays choice consisting of "not that way" by sam smith. a little moody but i mean, so am i. loneliness has consumed my days, lays chips and christmas rom coms the only things bringing me any comfort, long showers and adele mixing with my tears and razors spilled on my bathroom floor. these thoughts start to cloud my brain as i step on the gas peddle peaking out of my apartment complexes garage, heading to a local club to forget my sorrows, and hopefully forget myself as a whole. the club, so i've been told, is the place to be on friday nights like these, when everyone is frozen and just wants to warm themselves back up, using heat from others to do so, of course.

i turn off my music as i park in the back corner of the lot, people weren't lying, this place is packed. i stepped out of my car to get into the few people long line outside the door, where the bouncer stood checking I.D.s and faces. once it was my turn i handed him the card, a few years old at this point detailing a much happier and tanner louis. he notes the difference but shrugs it off and moves to the side so i can pass him and go inside. the first step in and i'm already surrounded by smoke and music fogging my eyes and ears. a strong scent of alcohol is wafting from the bar in the corner so i head that way, seating myself on the too tall for me bar stool, my feet dangling off the edge. soon enough a young man walks over, covered in tattoos and cigarette smoke and inquires, "what's your fix?" i respond shortly with "just one pint" and he shuffles away to get my beer.

i feel a warm presence oddly close to me, and as soon as i turn a hand lands on my thick thigh, gripping it and twisting my skin. i immediately jump yelling "get off me!!" and the man to which the hand belonged only pulls me back down, with strength i could never match. he leans close to me and whispers in my ear, scratching me with his beard "don't be afraid, i'm here to help you love." i squirmed uncomfortably under his touch my brain scouring itself for ways to get out of this. i lean back and say, "i'm waiting for my boyfriend! he should be here any minute so if you could please excuse me" he cut me off with a hand on my face and pulled my closer as he whispered again, "i don't see him anywhere, so no problem with me darling" he then placed both hands on my hips and started pulling himself in between my legs, i tried to kick in protest but ended up accidentally kicking the leg of someone behind me, who then turned around. the man who i kicked locked eyes with me, his the most beautiful shade of green i've ever seen, his hair was curly and messy on his head, coming down to about his shoulders. his pink lips were open slightly as if he was stuck in the middle of a sentence, and all of the sudden i saw his ringed hand move fast in front of me and rip the mans hands off my hips and all of the sudden i couldn't see anything, just green. only bright deep green sucking me in as i felt his lips suck on mine. he kissed me. whoever this random hero was just kissed me, it wasn't deep or seductive, but quick and meaningful. he then turned to the man he had hit and said, in a painfully attractive and slow accent, "i'm sorry sir but this is my boyfriend, i believe he warned you i was coming? so if you wouldn't mind leaving that'd be grand if you. if not i can always get security to..." "no no that's not  necessary you two enjoy your night i'll be off now"

and i turned and watched the man run straight out the door, almost knocking over at least 10 people on his way out. then i remembered, the green eyed curly boy was still right next to me, hands resting on my own. i turned to say, "thank you. thank you so much i don't know what would've happened if you hadn't-" he cut me off with "don't thank me, anyone would have done what i did, men like that're real horrible i'm so sorry he tried anything with you. i'm also sorry i kissed you, i just didn't really-" "it's okay, it wasn't really..." i felt myself blushing profusely, the heat of my face finally melting the ice still frozen in my scruff "it wasn't really a bad thing, i guess" and with that the curly boy smiled at me and i thought to myself, if i died now, not by suicide like i'd thought of, but naturally right now with that smile beaming at me and those eyes piercing my own, i could die a happy man, i'm sure.

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authors note:
hi i'm quinn! this is the first chapter of this book please comment and let me know what you think!! idk how long it's gonna be but i have a pretty good plan on how i want it to go ;)