Don't Go

The wrong arms

Alan Pov

I managed to get home wih tears stinging the corners of my eyes. I walked into the house, more like an apartment, but in this instant I just wanted to lay down and forget everything about the last 3 years. Austin has been running through my mind relentlessly for the last 3 fucking years, yet he fails to realize how much it hurt me to leave him. Now I've left him twice and he hasn't tried to call me or text me. I guess if he didn't care the first time, what would make me think he cared this time? 

I traveled up the stairs to my empty bed and lazily laid across the bed. I pulled the pillow over my face and let the tears begin to fall from my eyes. The last thing I need is for my neighbors to call the cops because of what sounds like murder is happening in my apartment. How could Austin not see what he was doing to me? He was fucking destroying me and how the hell he couldn't see that is beyond me. 

I checked my phone with the last hope I had in me to see if I maybe had a missed call or a few text messages from Austin, but as you guessed it, nothing. If he didn't care, neither did I. I needed to move on and so did he. We were toxic for each other and we both knew it. Maybe we weren't meant for each other. Oh well, life goes on, I guess. 

After my little crying fest in my bedroom, I decided that I should get up and go fix myself something to eat since you know, I haven't eaten all damn day. I put on some ramen and sprinkled salt and pepper on it, just the way Austin eats it. Fuck Austin. I was so done with Austin and everything about him. I figured I would throw everything away that remindedme of him and he just happens to find it, then oh well. Live for now and not for the past. 

I called up Shayley after I finished eating my noodles. I didn't know who to talk to anymore. Yes, after highschool me and shay had become almost inseperable. I don't know man, it's just something about him that can light up anyone's day, including mine. Yeah I know being friends with your teacher is inevitably weird, but after I graduated I figured it wouldn't hurt so I basically found him on facebook and we kind of became good friends. I mean after all he was only 4 years older than me. 

"Hey, Alan! What's up man? I haven't heard from you in a couple of days." 

"Sh-Shay. I don't know what to do anymore. Austin left me twice now shay. I can't keep doing this." I stuttered out. I'm surprised that Shay could even understand that I had said in those few moments of sniffling and crying. 

"Hey al. Listen to me. Austin is a dick, okay. He doesn't deserve you. You're too good for him and I know of a few other people who could treat you so much better than him, Al." 

What Shay had said had really surpised me. He's never talked so bad about Austin. You see, Shay has been there for me these 3 years and he knows everything about mine and Austin's past. I didn't expect him to talk badly about him like that to me. He knows how much he means to me. Oh well, I mean. 

"Shay, please come over. I don't want to be alone right now." 

"sure thing Alan. I'll be over in a few." And with that, Shay and I hung up the phone and I waited impatiently for him to arrive. 

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I heard the car door slam and I raced to the front door to open it for him. Shay had a bag in his left hand and a smile on his face, as always. I embraced him tightly and pulled him inside to sit on the couch. 

"What's in the bag, shayco?" I eagerly yelped from the couch.

"That's for later 'lan." Shay mumbled, but gave me a slight smile to reassure me of his intentions. 

"hey! How about we watch a movie? Does that sound good to you, Alan?" Shay sputtered out and went to grab my collection of movies from the book shelf.

"What do you want to watch?" I asked eagerly. 

Shay smiled at me and whispered, "How about 500 days of summer?"

"YESYESYESYESYES" I screamed from the couch and Shay gave me a warning glance to calm down. 

Shay got up to put the movie in and came and sat back down, slightly closer than before. Before we knew it, I was half asleep and Shay's arm had carelessly wrapped tightly around my shoulders. I dozed off into a slumber, with one thing on my mind...Why am I in Shayley's arms and not Austin's?