Cruel Fate (Book 1)

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I clap my hands two times to express my great gratitude for my effort to clean those mess, then I hold the door nub of my bedroom and drag it until I hear the click sound that means it's closed now. As I walk downstairs I can feel the presence of loneliness all over the house, cause every corner in here has a lot of memories that makes me cry, not only by the loneliness but also the angriness in my heart, I don't really know what should I feel, my mind really turn upside down cause of the conflicts that my family suffered and now I'm the one who carries all the pain that they made specially my father. Before I make myself cry again, I run, I pass by the living room I slowly open the door of my kitchen, I suddenly shocked, my eyes got widened my mouth dropped for a moment cause I forgot to clean up the egg sandwich that I made for my breakfast yesterday, I go closer to the table and I get the plate where I put my egg sandwich, I smell it if it still okay to eat and I guess it's not spoil yet so I still can, so I just I boiled one mug of water so I put it in my mug and then I make my hot chocolate. Now I'm ready to eat, I put the mug on the table beside the plate of my egg sandwich then I pull out the chair and I sit, I can hear my tummy rumbling so loud, so immediately bite my egg sandwich and I'm glad that it still taste good, I suddenly remember the hot chocolate that I made cause the smell of chocolate lingers around the kitchen, as I sip my taste buds jump cause the hot chocolate really taste good and the temperature is perfect for the cold weather today. Now I'm finished my egg sandwich and my hot chocolate but I'm still hungry, I want to eat cereals, I don't know if I still have stack, so I go to the left corner of my kitchen where my fridge found, as I open the door, I feel the cold temperature, I search in it's cabinets, I first open the first cabinet but only sugar and salt in here, so I close it and open the second cabinet but nothing is there, as I open the last cabinet, I'm hoping that inside of this is the cereals, and when I finally open it, my face suddenly glow brightly and bring smile to my lips cause I see that there is still cereals, I take it out from the cabinet, and then close it and I also close the door of my fridge, then I plug in again our electric stove and boil a one cup of water, I put the temperature of the stove in the highest temperature cause I'm really hungry, 2 and a half minutes past and finally its done, I put the boiled water in my bowl where I put all the cereals left. I immediately back to the chair where I sit, I take one spoon of it, and then I taste the creaminess of the milk and I can hear the crunchiness of the cereal inside my mouth. Finally I feel my tummy is full and I feel that my strength is back now, so I get the plate that I used for my sandwich, bowl I used for the cereals and the mug and I put them on the sink and after I washed them, I clean the table using a wet rug, and then I close the kitchen's door.

As I finally went out from the kitchen I look at the right wall of my living room where I can see the clock over my flat screen TV, it's only 8:30 in the morning and I don't know what should I do today, I think I don't have any reason to live anymore, but I don't have a plan to kill myself, I just don't why I'm suffering too much pain, even though I just want to cry and cry all day but I can't cause my eyes stop to produce tears. To make myself busy and forget the problem that I'm facing off before I get totally crazy, I decided to sit on my soft sofa and get the remote control on the TV on my mini table in front of me, then I turn the TV on and I go channel 29, the music channel to hear them and I can enable to release my stress and perfect timing the music that playing is a christian song, titled Families Can Be Together Forever

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♪ I have a family here on Earth, they are so good to me, I want to share my life with them through all eternity...♪♪♪ families can be together forever through heavenly father's plan I always want to be with my own family, and the Lord has shown me how I can, the Lord has shown how I can♪♪♪♪. After I heard the song, suddenly I shut my mouth and dead air occur for a moment, I just stared on the TV, thinking nothing, I feel that my eyes get heavier and I think my tears are about to fall, then as I expected they now fallen, so I blink my eyes in a faster way and suddenly my senses are back now. Is there really a forever? Specially in a family? About love? Why I can't feel it? If Heavenly Father really have a plan for the families that they are meant together, why? Why He let my family become this? My heart beat fast again, I can't breath normally, I can't take it anymore, instead I release my stress it became worst. I stand up, I turn off the TV then I go to my bedroom and throw myself onto my bed, and I cover my face using my pillow and then shout. After few minutes I finally calmed down and remove the pillow on my face, then I sit down, I remove my tears on my face, but I saw paper on my study table, I wonder who put it on here, then I remember that I saw it under my bed and put it here. I get the paper and slowly open it, and it's a note, I look at the last part of the note and it's from my father. My eyes got widened, I throw the paper immediately in the trash, cause I don't have any interest to know his reason or something, cause I have a feeling that note is a sorry note.

I think I need fresh air, so I decided to go out, I get my wallet but when I open it, I only have twenty pesos left in it, so I get my atm card, I need to use my savings now cause I don't have a choice. I get my keys and then I walk downstairs and finally got out from my house, and I locked it. It's already 12:00 o'clock pm so the heat of the sun really burning my skin, fortunately I brought my umbrella, I open it and I feel suddenly comfortable. While walking, I'm wondering where will I go, then I didn't noticed that I'm already in front of the super market, so I decided to go inside and perfect timing I need to buy food for my dinner later and for tomorrow cause I can't buy food tomorrow cause it's Sunday. As I pass by the securities, I go first to the atm booth then I withdraw 500 pesos,then I get basket for my groceries, I go first to the rice section to get 3 kilos of rice, I put it in the basket, then I go to the meat section and get 1 kilo and also put it in the basket, I guess the food it's enough for me, so I walk to the counter, then I pay, it cost 350 pesos, so only 150 pesos left in my wallet. As I check the time on my watch, I took 30 minutes inside the supermarket, I open first my umbrella, then walk back to my house.

To be continued...

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I really make the forgiveness part long cause forgiving is a very long process, I need to emphasize how lonely and hurt Simone is. I hope all of you continue to support my story I'm really appreciate it :)) and thanks Kiiim22 for helping me in making a correct grammar.