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OKAY! Rants, oh I wish I could rant to someone in real life but ksjsks no.
Do you all wonder why I called this section "rest room"? I was about to call it "toilet" or "bathroom" because that's where shit literally goes down, but "rest room" sounds like a much softer version and so, here it is hahah.
Last week and for the rest of this week (but Friday), our school had a small break because our seniors are taking one of their last finals of the year before graduating. Before break, all I had in mind was "wow I can finally go out into the sun and breathe" yaknow?
You guessed it — I haven't gone out ever since break started.
And I am pissed off.
Mostly because I don't have money, but usually I could make it work.
So my parents were like, "Nita, didn't you say that you wanted to go out on break?"
So then I know, oh my parents want me to go out. Yes. I finally have a motivation to head out yaknow?
My class and I, we have a group chat and they were planning on going to this amusement park on Tuesday (which will be ... hmm.. let me see... toMORROW) and asked who else wanted to join. I was hesitant at first — your girl didn't have money. But they said that if at least 15 people came then we could cut the price by more than 50%. I was like, hey not bad so I said I'll go but only if I had the money.
I asked my dad if I could go and he said he'll think about it. Everyone in my family knows when my dad says that he'll think about it means that I could possibly go. So I was like, yes, I can go.
So I said to the class yes I could go and everything and they could pay for it then so we could get the discount price and everything. My friend paid and covered for us so we can just give her the money on the day, everything was fine.
Earlier today, I reminded my dad again and that's when he started to ksjfkls uGh. He asked how many people are going, a list of names of who was gonna come, what time are we going and what time we would be back, et cetera et cetera. And eventually, he said no.
With the reason being that I have "better things to do like stay at home and write some stories".
I'm already 15 for Goodness' sake. I know why he said that — he doesn't want me to hang out with boys. I mean, I completely understand where he's coming from but I'm not a little kid. I know how to take care of myself. It's not like I'm going to throw myself at them, I know how to keep my self respect.
At least tell me I couldn't go before it's paid.
And now I'm torn between not going and going because it's already paid. I want to curl up and cry, I shouldn't be this stressed out about it but I'm a person who thinks about every single possible outcome and scenarios of what could happen. And at this point, I don't know what to do.
It'll be a waste of money if I didn't go and paid for it anyway in order for my friends to be able to go yet akslfjs I don't know anymore.
Thank you for listening to Nita's random night talks.
See you if I survive.
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WHERE SHOULD WE GO NEXT?
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