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My sweet angel, Malaak.
Exactly one year ago, you pmed me, and I still clown you for saying that til this day.
"Hi um." You said.
Never have I thought that those two simple words, consisting of four letters, 2 vowels and 2 consonants, will stretch more and more each day and here we are, one year later and our "hi um"s has morphed into long lines of stories, rants and just full on weird talks.
Malaak, in Arabic, meaning angel and it's no surprise when you literally are an angel. You're beautiful, smart, quirky, and think of every positive adjective out there - those all fit you. Even though I'm older than you by a couple of years, I still look up to you, you know? You're such an amazing, incredible person, how can one not be?
On some days, you randomly text me "I love you"s and you don't know how much of a big deal that is to me. Out of the blue you say that, and it could make my once bad day turn into a good day. And I could tell you, that I love you too, very, very, very much. I know that I don't say that to you as much as you do to me, but please know that I do love you as equally, if not, more. I love many people, because I just can't bring it in me to hate someone, but not many get the words 'I love you' written fully and the fact that I write it to you, man, you've impacted my life in so many ways in just one year.
You were there for me when I was feeling down, you were there for me when I was feeling really insecure, when I wanted to tell you stories of how my day went, my concerns, and when I tell you about people in my life who makes me go all ksjskdjdkkj. Or when I was so pissed at my seniors that day so you let me rant my heart out and by just being there for me and listening to my venting, that's enough for me and I'm so grateful. You always make my day seem a little brighter, or if you're busy, you always make sure of how I'm doing. And I'm sorry if I ever not do the same, but boy oh boy, how did I manage to live before I met you?
You've done so much for me and yet I feel that I haven't done as much for you, and I'm sorry. But I have so many things that I'm grateful of for you and I know it doesn't compare to the things you do for me, but I hope you don't mind.
Malaak, one time you told me that you just wanted to make me happy and that's all you ever want. You said that you hope that I would be happier and I can not lie to you that you do make me so much happier and knowing that I know you'll let me tell you a million stories once I get home from school just gives me someplace safe, you see.
Also! It was your birthday two weeks ago and I said that I'd do something but I couldn't at the time because I remember saying that I was sitting on the motorbike on the way home from school or something. Well, here's that little something, you know, since the dates are pretty close together, why not squish them all together and let out everything that I want to say to you, but have been too, I guess, shy to say because I'm a person who fucking sucks at these kinds of things.
Happy birthday, Angel! Honestly, being friends with you is like watching you grow up and even though it's only been a year, it feels like I've known you for nearly all my life. I'm so proud of you and for how far you've come, how you grow everyday to be a more mature and beautiful human being. You're like a sister to me and I'm so grateful that on that day, you decided to go all "hi um" on me because if we never crossed paths then honestly, I don't really know where I'll be at now.
In the future, we will have that sleepover we've always wanted to do ever since the first 2 weeks at we met. We'll watch a bunch of crack videos that we find on Youtube, make brownies and I'll be able to buy you food and scold you for pouring milk first before the cereal- We'll watch a Stray Kids concert together and we'll go road tripping from one side of Europe to the other end of Asia or something, maybe I'll get you all annoyed with all my horrible dad jokes but it's okay:DD
The past few days, I've been re-reading our old conversations on Wattpad pms, Skype and Discord and I couldn't stop laughing at all the weird things we say and how everything is so random.
We shared a lot of our ideas, like how you first mentioned the idea for the Seven Seas, and how we stayed up late trying to finish my form for Hwara, when you asked how everyone is doing and I said everyone's great but thirsty and so you asked just thirsty for what which I said "woop woop woop woop woop firetruck" and you said that I was high. That one time when you asked me why I was up at 11:15pm and I said that I was busting for the toilet but I was too lazy to go. When you asked me which song you should sing for a school competition but I didn't know because I can't sing and I didn't know what kind of songs you were comfortable with singing. When you first introduced me to who the people who I didn't know would be some of the people I love the most, you're all like a family to me. How we'd procrastinate together and talk about random things like flying pooping cows in space and how I stopped picking my nose because Youtube autoplayed SKZ.
And there were other times where you were comforting me, saying that it's okay and that I've done well and that you're proud of me because I did "okay" in maths. There were other times where I did the same and we talked about really deep stuff and it's just wow, I can't believe that we're really this far in our friendship.
Those were just moments in the time we had together and I can't wait to spend more and more years of being your friend, your sister and your toe mother. Please know that I'll always, always, be there for you no matter what. You can always knock my door anytime you want and jump on the couch like the house has been yours the entire time. I'll always have your back and I'll try to be a more mature, responsible older sister for you to rely on and ask for advice. I'll try to become a much better version of myself so that I'll hopefully be able to be a much better example of a person.
But all sappy things aside, happy birthday, sweetheart! May you be blessed all through the year and thank you for being able to put up with me.
Much love,
Nita.
