Roadtrip and Mikey Cobban oneshots bxb

Randy (insecure)

Hi! So first things first, this is quite emotional for me. Second, I must put a trigger warning. This will have self harm, and insecurities, minorly mention eating disorders, and lastly have suicidal thoughts
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Andy is insecure about the bit of fat on his tummy and self harms by digging his nails into his skin. He's never broke the skin and doesn't have scars it's just enough to hurt and ground himself a bit.

Andy was in the bathroom in front of the mirror staring at his stomach, tears in his eyes, as he wondered why he keeps eating. Then he wondered why he was even alive. He knows he isn't worthy or deserving of love or care, but it's all he wants. He craves the feeling of someone's arms around him as he breaks down. Especially when he feels whiny and sleepy and emotional. I'm sure you could guess how he was feeling today. As tears started running down his face, his thoughts racing a mile a minute, he dug his nails into his thigh, not enough to break the skin, never enough. Before he could register the knock on the door-or the fact he didn't lock it- the door was thrown open. It was then that he realized he'd been whimpering out loud. Rye fell to his knees beside him grabbing his wrist, making him stop hurting himself, as he pulled him into his lap whispering "it's okay, I'm here now,I won't leave baby boy, I won't leave."  Andy just clung to the taller boy, putting his face into his neck and gripping onto his shirt. Once he'd calmed and fallen asleep Rye carefully stood up, carrying the smaller boy to his room, climbing up into the castle bed carefully before laying down next to him. He noticed how the boy curled up to him, practically laying on top of him, clinging to him even in his sleep.

A couple hours later, Andy finally woke back up realizing he was laying on Ryes chest and Ryes hand was running through his hair. Rye realized he woke up and smiled down at him "hi baby boy" Andy just blushes and shyly said "hi ryepie"

"We need to talk babe" rye said gently.
Andy just shyly nodded. Rye sat up, Andy still in his lap, noticing how the smaller boy blushed and looked down. He hooked two of his fingers under his chin making him look up at him. "Why'd you do it baby boy?" He asked gently but sternly. "I'm fat and clingy and annoying and I just want someone to be there. But I don't deserve love." He whispered trying to look anywhere but in Ryes eyes although it was difficult, because Rye was still making him look up.

"Baby please look at me." Rye whispered gently, softly smiling when he did as asked. "You are not annoying babe. Being clingy isn't always a bad thing. You're mom was always working so much and she loves you so much, but you didn't get enough of the love and care you're craving right now." Running his hand through his hair, smiling even more when he saw how he was leaning into it unaware.

Grabbing Andy's shirt he slowly lifted it, the smaller boy immediately panicking and trying to cover himself. Sighing, Rye grabbed his arms,  pulling them away whispering "baby boy please let me see you"

Andy nodded and let his arms be pulled away, looking down. "You're beautiful" Rye whispered, pulling the younger boy into a kiss, full of not lust, but love. Pure love.

"I know it will be hard and I know sometimes it will still happen, but please try not to hurt yourself, for me?" Rye asked softly. Andy nodding in response before cuddling back into Rye.