I really try hard to write. but I either have to be really freaking inspired or really freaking upset about something for the words to come and right now, I have neither. I haven't felt either way for a while now and nothing seems to motivate me to write and keep this book going, so I've decided to simply do an update on my life.
for starters, I got the flu. UGH! no, I have not gone to the doctor, but the horrible way I've been feeling the past few days can only have one name. and its sucks because in the beginning I didn't even recognize the symptoms because I hardly get sick. literally a week ago I was showing off to my friends how I never get sick and then bam! I get the flu for the first time.
two, junior year is almost over and im dead worried I won't be able to go to an out of state college.
three, I hate attention almost 100 percent of the time and I hate feeling like I am taking away someone else's attention unknowingly because then I get blamed for being an attention seeker. I promise I don't mean it
four, I had this amazing summer planned because (yay me) I got accepted into this awesome summer program that paid for literally everything except my flight and now my parents don't want to let me go so yeah
five, im proud of myself because im taking the most rigorous classes my school has and I have straight a's so far! hopefully I don't jinx it
six, I suck at math. we've been learning the unit circle and I cannot comprehend anything about it ihatemath so much
seven, I almost don't care about him at all. but im worried I only don't care because he's not giving me attention and not because ive finally stopped liking him
eight, my best friend is amazing and the best and im sorry to my other best friends. I don't mean to make you feel left out. Im just happy I found someone I truly connect with and sometimes I get caught up in being so happy that I don't realize that others don't feel the same way
nine, im slightly sad that said bff doesnt feel that attached with me
ten, I do realize that im way too dependent
eleven, im so happy because I have finally decided that I for sure hundred percent want to be a psychologist
I do realize that 11 is a random number to just leave on but yeah that's about it on my life
