SORRY PLUTO [ JACK x ZACH ]

fifteen

sadness usually ended up with me writing in this journal, but for saturn i learned that he watched his pain away.

he'd grab his laptop, lay in bed, and turn on a movie or show.

he'd done that, and i'm sat under saturn's covers (with him), watching a movie he had found on netflix.

it was quite good, but it was hard to concentrate when his leg would usually bump into mine, his hand grasped onto mine.

i liked it. i loved holding his hand, it was like two different universes were crashing into each other, creating a whole new planet.

i couldn't pay attention. the constant urge of, just kiss him! wouldn't leave my brain.

why shouldn't i? i thought. there's really nothing holding me back.

maybe it was that i didn't know how to kiss. it would be my first, and i wouldn't want my own self to ruin my first kiss.

how do i do it? do i tell him?

"you're like saturn." i mentioned quietly, my head turning to look at his. he paused the movie and looked at me with confusion written in his face, "saturn?"

"saturn. the planet."

he nodded, "is that a good thing?"

"extremely!"

"so, why am i saturn again?" he asked.

"well, take it like this, i'm pluto, right? cold, far, forgotten, declassified as a planet, small, you get the gist. and you're saturn, beautiful rings cascading around you, the second largest planet in our solar system, literally everyone loves saturn."

he pursed his lips, "i think i should be pluto."

i shook my head, "nope! saturn. it's perfect!"

he smiled at me, "thanks. if that was a complement."

"oh, it's totally a complement."

it was like there was the sun in his eyes, because the gravitational pull was so strong that i couldn't look away.  

i admired him, and yet all the light that glowed on his face was the light of the laptop shining onto him in the darkness of his room.

hope.

courage filled my lungs as i placed my hand atop of his blushed cheek, my other hand filled with his own.

his cheek was soft, and as i began to lean in i felt him soften. his muscles turning calm and breathing steady.

my lips were placed upon his, moving within the stars and the asteroids, creating light.

his hand rested in my hair, and somehow i felt like a planet again. i closed my eyes and let the darkness of space fill me.

saturn had given me some of his angelic rings, and i'd thanked him, kissing his lips passionately as i placed my hand on his chest.

he kissed me with hope written beneath his pink lips and brown eyes, hope riding through his planet and latching onto mine, creating a masterpiece in the galaxy.

and it truly was a masterpiece, because i felt him squeeze my hand in reassurance, assuring me that we're okay.

what we were doing was okay.

i could've been venus in this moment, because i've never felt hotter.

his touch was like lava that flowed within the sun, the lava that had exploded from volcanoes in the early earth years, it made an ice block warm.

i was melting, i felt the coldness run from my brain and into the boy that was slowly taking my heart, kissing him with everything.

and as we disconnected, i let my nose rest beside his, our breathing mixed as i collected myself. our hands connected, i opened my eyes and looked at him with my heart held in my hands, "you're everything,

jack,

you're my galaxy."

and he looked back at me, his eyes finding mine naturally,

"and zach, you've given me the hope i've never had, but always needed."

we completed each other. just like how pluto needed saturn, i needed jack, but i didn't know he needed me.

it's okay, pluto, it's all okay.

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