What are we doing with our lives?/Spam Book

A vent?

Hey. So. It's a certain someone.

I just...feel like I'm nothing right now. Empty. I try to keep a smile on my face. I try to pretend everything is fine.

I try to seem like I'm happy with my family.

I tried to tell them I was struggling mentally.

" I'm just struggling physically and mentally okay?"

" Don't lie about that. You're fine."

They didn't believe me. I can't show how I really feel. Everybody else has worse problems, even at school. My friend's mom won't let them be themself by letting them cut their hair short. My other friend who was my double during a musical struggles with eating disorders and fitting in.

And then there's me. A normal family who cares about me. A family that treats me alright. I don't even know why I feel this way. I don't need to feel this way. I can't. I just can't. I could only pretend to be happy. Fine. Okay. Normal.

...I'm sorry...I just, can't handle the world anymore. I began coping with something else, nobody knows, I really am sorry. Sorry to make the happy mood go low again.

-An Unknown Person