Who's Noah?

Im so sorry Noah

The day had finally come for our 12 week scan, Noah had been frantically running around the house trying to find the right thing to wear, a note book to take notes with and let's be honest here when we say seeing him running round like a little boy was the cutest thing in the world.

'Come on Noah were gonna be late' I whined from the front door, still waiting for Noah to sort his life out.

'I'm coming I'm coming hold your horses' he shouted from the top of the stairs, running down them he planted a kiss on my lips before running to the car and starting the engine.

We arrived at the appointment and once again there was a huge group of fans outside the hospital. Noah grabbed ahold of my hand and dragged me through the crowd, he seemed agitated by them and his slight arrogance towards fans asking for pictures showed his annoyance.

'Noah can I have a picture its not like she's important' One fan stated to which Noah whipped his head round.

'What did you just say to me?' I tugged on his hand in the hope that he'd just leave it but he clearly had other ideas.

'I asked if I could have a photo?' The girl repeated innocently to which Noah curled his top lip in disgust, squeezing my hand as I continued to tug him away.

'Just so you know guys, that baby is the most important thing in the world to me and if I ever see you guys outside a hospital appointment again I'll stop doing this movie' he spat and I chocked a little at the threat.

I sat down in the waiting room whilst Noah checked us in, he came over to me with some forms to fill in and sat down with a huff. I lent my head in his shoulder and my hand on his thigh hoping to calm him down as he angryly tapped his foot on the floor and fondled with the lose bits if skin on his thumb.

'Miss French?' A nurse called and I jumped up out of my thoughts, Noah following quickly behind as we entered the doctors room.

I laid down on the bed whilst the Nurse but the freezing cold gel on my stomach and began proding it in an attempt to find the baby. Noah's hand was in mine as he lent forward watching the screen and waiting for the doctor to make any kind if sound. She didnt. All of our eyes were fixated on the screen which displayed a tiny dot in amongst a much larger black circle.

'Have you had any bleeding or stomach cramps?' The nurse asked, whiping the gel off of my stomach.

'N-no' I stammered, Noah's eyes windening as the silence grew louder and louder in the tiny little room.

'What's happening?' He asked, a tone if fear and agitation in his voice as he squeezed my hand.

'I'm sorry guys, there's no heart beat, I'll schedule you another appointment in three weeks, if there's still no bleeding we may need to operate'

A single tear fell down my cheek and Noah's head fell as he held my hand in both of his, pulling them up to his lips and pressing a kiss to them. I stood up rushing out of the room and as I was about to run anywhere Noah grabbed me, pulling me into a tight hug, rocking us from side and to side and shushing me as my sobs grew louder and louder.

'Im so sorry Noah' I stammered. He pulled me away from his chest kissing my forhead.

'There will be plenty of other chances for us gorgeous girl don't worry, now wipe those tears, let's go home yeah?' I nodded and followed him out of the hospital.

I was blinded by flashing camera lights and deafend by the screaming questions from both the paperazzi and the fans, I gave a gentle smile to some and others I simple bowed my head low so they couldn't see the tears still falling.

***skip a fee hours***

Both mine and Noah's phones had not stopped buzzing since we left the hospital, messages, followers, likes, story's everything was blowing up to the point where I couldn't take it any more.

NowNews: Noah Centineo and girlfriend seen exciting maternity hospital, looks like a rocky road ahead for these two

Megan French seen looking agitated and angry at boyfriend as they exited the hospital.

Noah came strolling into the room and I showed him the post, he huffed and shoved my phone into his pocket, looking at the ultra sound pictures we had been allowed to take home. I cuddled into him as we looked at the tiny dot, little rainbow as Noah decided it was called.

'I think we should tell the fans, most of them are only concerned' he suggested and I nodded, we came to the conclusion that he would do the post to break it to the rest of the world, I didn't have the emotional strength to put my body through that.

A few hours later I woke up on Noah's lap, looking up he was still asleep, his head leaning back on the head rest of the sofa, lips slightly parted and his chest was gently rising up and down, pushing my head in and out as he did so. I smiled at the sight, reaching for my phone out of his pocket causing him to store but thankfully he remained asleep, his arms still draped around me in a protective manour.

I went onto Instagram to see Noah's post telling the fans about the loss of little rainbow baby. It was sad to read it, it somehow made it even more real than it already was, he had turned comments off probably to protect both of us but people were commenting on posts where they could, most were positive, sending love and their best wishes which was lovely. I commented back to a few, sending heart emojies or simple a fee x's but that was it. Overall I probably read his post about twelve times before he woke up.

ncentineo: today myself and I @meganfrench said goodbye to our little rainbow baby, it was the happiest 12 weeks of our lives but it wasn't your time to meet us yet, we look foreword to the day you grace us with your presence. For now we ask you to respect our privacy and please be nice to Meg, she is such a strong individual and I currently find her asleep on me....help.