I cracked the bathroom door open, a small tear running down my face, this could not be happening, not now not to me. Katie smiled sympathetically and brought me in for a hug, I sniffled into her shoulder as she stroked my back, attempting to calm me. My thoughts began to run away with me, I was absolutely petrafied about what Noah would say and how he would react. Katie soon pulled me away from her shoulder, looking deeply into my eyes.
'We have to get you to Noah' she said gently, I knew I'd have to tell him but as I've said before, I was terrified of his reaction.
'I know but how, he's four hours away by train one and half by plane and about one hundred years away by car, how are we going to get there?' My voice was stressed, palms sweating and heart racing, I needed to calm down if not for me, for the babies sake. Oh my god...there's a human in my stomach.
'We can get the train from the station in an hour, come on, pack some things, can you text him to tell him your coming?' She asked, grabbing a small back pack and stuffing some of my things into it, including the pregnancy test in its box.
I whipped my phone out of my pocket and began to text Noah, pressing send my heart dropped, this was it, our relationship was going to break or strengthen.
Text to Noah❤:
Hey, im coming to see you
something's happened and
I need to see you x
Text from Noah❤:
Hey gorgeous girl, I can't wait,
when are you getting here?x
Text to Noah❤:
Soon, I'm getting the train in
an hour x
I shut my phone off and followed Katie down the corridor, I flung my bag onto my back as we headed out of the reception and towards the train station. It was freezing outside but I was ready to see Noah, I needed to know what his reaction would be and whether we had a future together.
'OK, you'll be good, just text me, ring me, whatever you need baby girl' Katie gave me one last hug before I boarded the train, buying my ticket and finding a space. I looked out the window and watched the world go by as the train zoomed down the track without a care in the world.
***skip the train journey***
As I stepped of the train, a few people began to notice me and ask for pictures, this was a first. I took pictures with those who asked and spoke to some lovely people who had nothing but nice words to say.
As soon as I got to Noah's hotel and saw him, I ran into Noah's arms and he held me close, once again tears spilling out of my eyes and onto his shirt. I clenched my fingers around his shirt as he held me, rocking me side to side make calming 'shh' noises trying to calm me.
'Hey hey hey, what's up?' He asked and I shook my head, he simply drew in a breath and led me up to his room where I sat on the bed searching through my thoughts for a way to tell him.
'It smells bad in here' I commented, scrunching my nose up at the smell of sweat.
'Oh well, nice to see you too' he giggled giving me another hug and plopping down on the bed next to me, for the first time I felt calm and ready to face the music.
'So what was it you wanted to tell me?' Noah asked, it was like he already knew as he held my hands in his stroking my skin with his thumb.
'I um, i-'
'Noah i- I don't know what to do i-'
There was silence, I honestly couldn't get my words to come out of my stupid mouth, the same stupid mouth that said 'I want to have sex with you' and if I'd never said that this would never of happened and everything would be fabulous, but oh no. I decided the best way to tell him was to just hand him the test.
'Here' I handed him the test and his eyes went wide, he opened the box taking out the stick and turning it over to see the positive sign on the tiny grey screen.
He stroked the test for a minute, his breath remained calm and one hand never left mine it only squeezed it tighter. He finally pulled his gaze away from the test and looked at me, smiling from ear to ear, I didn't know what to make of it.
'WERE HAVING A BABY!' He screamed leaping up hugging me and kissing me twirling me round like something from the movies.
'Noah we've been together like 8 months, this doesn't exactly look good on you does it' I paused 'im so sorry Noah' he huffed bringing me into his arms.
'Its not ideal I'll admit that, and the condom must have split, but here we are, with each other, all three of us' he giggled and in that moment I honestly felt like actually everything would be okay.
I was pregnant, and although it wasnt the best timing, and it wasn't ideal my any pretense but it was my baby with the man I was growing to love more and more each and every day, I was OK with where my life was taking me.
