Little Mixed Directions

Chapter Fourteen: Golden Sunshine

{Perrie's POV}

I rub my eyes and then open them, flipping over from my left side to my back. I notice the white ceiling and then realise I'm in Zayn and my bed. I snap my head to my right and he's looking at me. What the heck? I pinch myself a couple of times on the face and thigh and Zayn chuckles.

"You're awake love." He tells me and then gets out of the bed, only wearing sweatpants. I try to not look at his bare back as he walks into the bathroom. 

I lunge out of the bed, grab my phone and rush into the wadrobe, closing the door behind me. I open up messages and go to Jade.

To Jadey: Why the heck did I wake up in my own bed?

I chew my nails as I wait for a reply from my band mate. We're going to try on our dresses today for Jesy's wedding. 

From Jadey: Zayn took you home when you fell asleep. I'm guessing this is a step forward! eeek! See you at ten! xx

Okay...

{Jesy's POV}

Jade finally arrives at the dress shop, Asha by her side.

Asha and Ellie are going to be the flower girls. Asha has a little white dress with a golden ribbon around the waist and little golden flats, not to mention we're going to put a gold ribbon into her curls. Ellie is going to wear a little cotton white dress that has a white Peter Pan collar, long sleeves and light grey little polka dots over it. We're going to put white tights underneath and completely white low Converses. Leigh found a baby flower headband with white and gold flowers on it for her to wear on her head. They'll both look too cute!

"Ready to try on your dresses?" I ask Leigh- Anne, Jade, Perrie, Eleanor and Asha. They all nod with excitement and the shop assistant shows them where to go whilst I look after Ellie. I hope they like their dresses. We're going for a light grey, white and gold themed wedding and it's going to be outside in the Kew Gardens, followed by photos in the gardens and the reception in the building. It should be amazing!

"Jes! We're all ready!" Eleanor calls. I call for them to come out and I hear Perrie counting down from three and they step out of the change rooms. Yes! Hell yes!

"You look amazing!" I squeal jumping up. The girls laugh and do little twirls. (Picture of bridesmaid dresses on side). 

"I feel amazing!" Jade gushes. "They're beautiful Jesy! Absolutely perfect!" I thank the girls, take a few photos, chat for a while and then Leigh- Anne, Jade, Asha and Eleanor leave. Perrie picks up the baby bag and then takes Ellie from me.

"So, you excited?" Perrie asks me as we walk out of the building. I'm excited and nervous! But I guess Perrie's the one to talk to about this stuff, she's done it.

"Yeah! But I'm really nervous." I reply. Perrie and I chat about before the wedding and she reassures me there's nothing to worry about. "But, you girls look devine in your dresses!" I exclaim.

Perrie laughs and we keep walking back to Perrie's. It's about a ten minute walk from the bridal shop to her home. 

"Liam and Louis will be drooling, Harry will have waterfalls of saliva coming out of his mouth," I say, causing Perrie to laugh. "And Zay- yeah." I stop there, knowing it's a sensitive subject at the moment.

"Has said two sentences to me since he walked out of Liam's house." Perrie sighs. I know what Perrie did was wrong, of course, but I feel bad that she's blaming herself and taking ALL the blame, Harry's got a free walk. 

"Perrie, last night," I start. Should I tell her? "Look, Zayn is madly in love with you. He always has been, he always will be. I'm sticking true to I've never seen boy so in love with a girl," I stop and so does Perrie. "He broke down once you were asleep. You're his everything along with Ellie Pep." I tell my band mate. Her eyes fill with tears.

"He told me that he feels like he's been ripped in half and not because of what happened, but because he's worried he can't help you Perrie. He's scared because you're blaming EVERYTHING on you Perrie." I explain. She just nods, starting to let tears slide from her eyes.

"He told us all that you're more than what he deserves," I explain. She shakes her head, tears rapidly falling. "Zayn told me Ellie reminds him of you, her eyes especially but also her bubbly attitude, just like you Pep." I compliment her. 

"He reckons he's the luckiest guy alive but his emotions are all mixed up and he hates that they are. Zayn just wants you to realise that you're his everything, along with Ellie and you're the one."  I emphasie 'the one'. 

Perrie just cries and I hug her tightly, but not too tight that I squash Ellie. Yes, I'm comforting Perrie on a footpath that other people are walking along, giving us weird looks as they pass.

I pull off Perrie and look into her wet, blue eyes. "He can't live without you. That's why he brought you back." I finalise my talk. Perrie nods and wipes her eyes. "You need to realise it Perrie, no one hates you or thinks you've done anything wrong. Even though technically you have, Zayn adores you still and we need our bubbly, happy Perrie back." I say. Perrie hasn't smiled since it all happened, which I'm starting to worry about. 

"Thanks Jes." Perrie hugs me and we finish walking to her house. I drop Perrie off and then walk to my own. 

The thing with Perrie is, she is a happy, bubbly person. She doesn't have the best of everything so instead she makes every situation better. She lights up our worlds. I'd like to dedicate that line from What Makes You Beautiful to her one day. I need to get Liam or Louis to do that. 

I need Perrie to smile. She's my little sunshine and I need her to light up the wedding, I'm counting on her to do that.

"If you have the power to make someone happy, do it. The world needs more of that."