Till You Wake Up: The 30 Letters

Thirtieth Letter

Dear Jimin,

Jimin, I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry.

Good news is, we found a donor.

The bad news is...

well...

I'm your heart donor...

Okay, now I know it is a lot to take in but...

Well, it's really a huge amount to take in...

Jimin, I'm so sorry. I couldn't stay with you even if I wanted to. I'm giving up my life for you. I'm really sorry if this isn't what you've hoped for. I didn't even hope for this but, I had no other choice. I want you to live Jimin. You deserve to live. I'm really sorry if I can't stay with you like I promised I would. I'm sorry that I couldn't wait for you until you wake up. I'm sorry for not celebrating with you. I'm sorry for being able to eat the cupcakes with you. I'm sorry for not being able to listen to the song I made with you. I'm sorry for not being able to do the things I planned to do with you. I'm sorry for not staying with you. I'm sorry for not being able to protect you.

I can't protect you anymore Jimin, but I'm going to save you.

I want to save you Jimin.

Please don't be mad... I am doing this for you... For your future...

I sound more like a parent but, I really mean it.

I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you but, this isn't the ending I wanted to receive. Nor did I want this to end.

I'm really sorry Jimin... I couldn't stay...

I couldn't get to hear your voice again, see your smile again, hear your most beautiful laugh, hug you, kiss you... I won't be able to comfort you.

I know you're crying Jimin... I'm sorry for making you cry...

But it's okay to cry.

While at this, I would like to thank you Jimin.

Thank you for being there for me, thank you for making me smile, thank you for breaking me out of my anti-social bubble, thank you for your warm hugs, your warm kisses, everything. Thank you for loving me with your whole heart.

Now, I'm giving my heart to you.

After everything you've done, you really deserve to live. You are an angel who was set upon this world. And I'm happy to have fallen for an angel like you.

I wish I could say a lot more stuff. I wish I could spend more time with you. But I can't.

I just can't.

The surgery is in a few minutes and...

You're gonna live.

I'm excited for you Jimin. You will finally wake up. Although you wouldn't be seeing me, I hope you read all of the 30 letters I wrote to you.

Even though I'm gone physically, know that I'm always here for you. Know that this time, I will be your guardian angel. In my next life, I really do hope that I'll become a rock. But I'd be happy to be anything as long I get to see you again even in just another life.

Thank you for everything Jimin. 

You made my life worth living.

I really wish I could stay.

But, it's time for me to go.

Thank you...

I'm sorry...

I love you Jimin.

I love you so much.

Always be yourself, okay?

Goodbye.

Your Guardian Angel,
Min Yoongi