Till You Wake Up: The 30 Letters

Thirty-First Letter

Dear Yoongi,

Hey Yoongi. It's been a while since we actually talked to each other haha. I want to update you to what is happening with me right now after waking up from that coma.

Jia noona came back and my parents were happy to see her. I didn't even know she had a child wow. I'm an uncle now Yoongi haha. I've always wanted to be one. I guess you could say you're an uncle now too! His name is Jung and, he's really cute and small. He's actually 3 years old!

Our friends came to visit me after hearing the news that I've finally woken up. Taehyung asked where you were and, I guessed you didn't tell them. You told Jin hyung but not everyone else. I had to tell them about the funeral that will be held for you. They cried and felt really sorry. I was too.

My manager actually gave me a cake just like you said. I was worried for a moment that he was going to fire me haha. He's really such a caring manager. We should've worked at the same cafe.

Also, the cupcakes, thank you so much for it. But I also didn't eat it since I ate my manager's cake. I saw an old couple in the cafe so I decided to give it to them. They looked at me with a happy expression. It really made my heart swell. Well, it made your heart swell. You know what I mean.

I also listened to the song and oh my god Yoongi, it was so good! See? I told you that you had the skills of a composer and you never listened to me. Hmph. 

Oh and, the driver did get arrested and he really paid for the hospital fees. I didn't think he really meant what happened and I feel bad. The whole thing was my fault since I wasn't really careful.

I'm also living with my sister now. I finally left the apartment since it's really lonely without you. I met Holly and Holly's adorable! I didn't think you would adopt a dog, to be honest, but really, thank you for adopting Holly. I will take good care of our child now.

Oh and, I feel bad for not being able to spend your birthday and our anniversary with you... I had some things planned for both days actually but, you know. The whole car accident situation happened.

You know Yoongi, I really appreciate you for being there for me. Spending those 30 days to write letters instead of doing something better. I mean, I do love reading what you wrote but, you could've done a lot more.

You made such a huge sacrifice. You gave up your life for me. Oh no, I'm tearing up now haha. You always make me cry Yoongi.

I don't know, I just. I really miss you. And I mean I really really miss you. You had to pull out the selfless act upon me. I know that you wanted me to live but... never mind.

Yoongi, I'd like to thank you for everything. Thank you for all the fun times we had together. Thank you for responding to me even though almost everyone in the class tried to convince me that you wouldn't reply to me. Thank you for standing up for me against my bully. Thank you for all the memories we had. Thank you for being there for me, for comforting me, for loving me with your whole heart. Thank you for trusting me and believing in me. It really meant a lot.

So, your funeral is tomorrow. Not quite ready to see you inside a coffin. I know that we would make jokes about it but, now it's really happening. It's not even funny...

But after the funeral, I plan to travel around the world. I'll be leaving Holly with Jia noona for a while and I'll check everything that's written in the bucket list that you wrote. Of course, I added some more. I can't wait to travel around the world! I'll be traveling around the world with you! Since you're already here, in my heart.

It still stings, to be honest. I don't feel the pains anymore after that heart surgery which makes me fit to go and travel. But just thinking about you makes my heart sting.

I'm not excited for tomorrow though, it would be my final goodbye to you. But the day after that, I'll be happy for you! I'll try my best to not force myself but, I will make sure that I will enjoy the ride. You only live once. So I will fill my days with positive smiles!

At least you'll be there Yoongi! You'll be with me when I accomplish this bucket list! 

After finishing this, I will finally be satisfied and soon enough, I'll be seeing you again.

I can't wait to see you Yoongi!

I miss you!

I love you!

I'm sorry

And thank you, my love, for everything.

Your Cute Boyfriend,
Jimin