Till You Wake Up: The 30 Letters

Nineteenth Letter

Dear Jimin,

Hi Jimin.

My parents talked to me today about something.

They hardly talk to me unless it is something really important, specifically meaning that it is something of their wants.

But getting straight to the point, they plan to go back to Daegu with me.

Today supposedly.

Of course, I didn't agree.

They are aware of your condition and they know that I would take care of you rather than going elsewhere. But then they decided to just call me and say that we're going to go back to Daegu today for good.

And when I say for good, I mean to stay there for the rest of our lives.

Then they said that they already bought the tickets.

So what if they bought tickets? I don't care if they spent their money on a ticket. It might sound rude of me. I know that they raised me and stuff and they provided for me but it is their fault for not asking me.

I've been following their wants for too long.

So I repeated that I didn't want to go then I hung up.

First of all, parents are supposed to be supportive of you. Whether or not you are part of the LGBT+ community. I know that parents can love their child in different ways but all that a child is asking for is for them to listen to what they want. Or at least hear them out.

I've told you this, my parents didn't agree with our relationship. No, they hated it.

Second, why would you spend money on an extra ticket if they know that you do not want to go? Well, I can't exactly read my parents' minds but I'm pretty sure that they know that I'm never leaving you. Especially with your condition right now.

I'm really sorry for ranting. I'm just really stressed about this...

Well, I'm gonna change the topic now.

I found out that cupcakes don't expire. Actually, I didn't find out, I remembered. They have a shelf life which is different from expiration. So I placed the cupcakes in that mini-fridge. I hope you wake up before it would taste bad.

But seriously Jimin, I'm getting even more worried. I've really wanted to stay positive and optimistic for you but, it's been 19 days.

Some have been in their sleep for years and, some families just decide to euthanize them. Instead of hoping, they just give up on them.

Not saying that it's gonna happen to you though.

I'll never give up on you Jimin.

Even if your parents run out of money, I will make sure to work very hard so that I can be the one to pay for you. 

It is because I have hope in you and I know that you're gonna wake up soon.

Even if it had to be years.

Your Pabo,
Yoongi