The Love Box

Chapter 16

I opened my eyes and jolted awake; I had fallen asleep on accident. Quickly I crawled over to the vent opening and crawled through; then I took the cover off without checking the laundry room and crawled out. Luckily both sides were empty; I put the cover back on the vent, and I walked through the Bedroom Hall until I reached my door.

Then I opened my door and saw my mom lying on her bed; it was earlier than I had thought. Quietly I walked to my bed and crawled on top of it, and I waited for the sound of the door closing.

It happened sooner than I thought it would, and I rolled over to see my mom was gone; she had gone to work.

Quickly I hopped up and noticed the clothes at the edge of my bed; I had jeans and a t-shirt. I picked them up and entered the bathroom; then I changed at a fast pace, and I left the bathroom.

As I walked to the door I looked at the beds; the two beds that were left in my room. I hadn’t even noticed my grandma’s bed was no longer in the room; there was an empty space in its place, and the empty space made me feel empty inside.

I left my room in a stride and slammed the door behind me; then I hit the door softly. The noise of the door might’ve woken people up; I hoped it hadn’t, but I didn’t have time to worry about anyone else.

My mind was set on one thing; that was to be alone in silence. I walked towards the laundry room and took a left, and I entered the library; it was empty as expected.

I walked over to the chairs my friends and I always sat in and took my place; I leaned back and put my legs on the table as I sighed.

The libraries silence was exactly what I needed, and I was glad the time was convenient for me; normally I would’ve been asleep at that time. The weird dream I had the night before had to have been longer than I thought because I was fully rested.

The contents of the dream encased my mind, and I re-experienced the entire thing. I saw the man that stood before me; the tree, the water, and the camps. Even my reoccurrence of the dream felt real.

I thought it was a sign; he said a lot of things that I had read on the computer screen with Nicki, but I still wasn’t sure if it was him. The man seemed to be powerful and all knowing, but I couldn’t fully believe yet besides it was just a dream.

What I saw wasn’t real and it never would be; I needed to accept that, but I couldn’t there wasn’t something inside of me that hoped it was real. I wanted it to be real, but I knew it wasn’t.

Was this the belief Nicki had told me about; you had to truly believe. Believing in something without proof was crazy, but I had been given proof; I saw it before my eyes. Maybe there was a chance God was real; maybe I was wrong.

My thoughts were interrupted by voices that came from the hall; I lifted my head and saw my friends walk by the door most likely heading for the cafeteria. I stood up from my chair and walked into the hall, and I watched as my friends turned the corner.

I walked quickly through the hall to catch them; when I turned the corner my friends entered the cafeteria and I followed. After I entered the cafeteria I joined my friends at the end of the line and waited to get my food.

My friends didn’t notice my arrival and I was too involved in my thoughts to be involved with their discussion of the most recent books they had read. Courtney seemed better, but I knew not to trust looks because looks can be deceiving.

The last time Courtney had fooled me with smiles, and I wouldn’t let that happen again. She knew that if she played that game again; I would win because I was prepared for it.