what if it's us fanfiction

seven

ben's pov

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"I don't know..." I flung myself on my bed, squeezing my eyes shut as tight as they would go. If I pretended hard enough I could imagine Arthur here in my bed with me. Whispering in my ear instead of through a phone. He would probably pat me on the back and hug me until I felt better. Or at least until I felt brave enough to apologize to Connor for exploding at him. "I don't know..." I repeated "how to start? It's kinda hard living with Connor," I wanted to rip my hair out.

Arthur didn't want to hear me moan about how I felt about my roommate. He wanted to go by his day and have a boyfriend who was normal and who didn't need constant life advice and attention.

"What do you mean?" I could hear shuffling on the other side, I didn't know what the shuffling was and I tried to focus on Arthurs voice that was in my ear. Gosh, if only he was here next to me right now. I could easily hug him (or get a hug from him) and just sit in silence and enjoy the time we were sharing. However, we were doing the long distance thing. So this was not an option. I could wish for it as much as I wanted, but it just wasn't going to happen until some of my classes assigned less homework or until after finals. So until then I would have to close my eyes and pretend to voice in my ear was my cute boyfriend who — in my mind — was sitting next to me.

"Today sucked, I blew up at Connor because he left the curtain open and the light woke me up! I cant go back to sleep after that! Like what the heck!" I threw a fit. I felt sleep deprived and mentally drained from a week of tough classes. I was stuck in a school loop. Work. Notes. Study. Test. Work. Notes. Study. Test. And etcetera. I just wanted a day to myself.

"Aw... I'm sorry," he apologized for me being stupid. I was being stupid! I was complaining about Connor when he didn't do anything. And here was my sweet boyfriend putting up with me and my mind. "Well if there's anything I can do to make your day better, please let me know!" he smiled.

I couldn't understand what I did to deserve him.

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