Where The Lotus Blooms.

For You

     It's been years since I've fallen out with Hale. I realized her toxicity, and what she really was. She did open my eyes and allow me to piece together what I truly need and want. I see the beauty in nature, and feel more complete when I am encased with it. Running my errands blasting my music and living life, I felt a new energy. I smiled and let it take me where it felt necessary. I wound up in a record store. I took my time wading through the aisles. Surrounded by Hendrix and The Beatles, Misfits, and Dropkick Murphey's. This feeling felt, homey. 

     "Hey you look really familiar, do I know you?" That phrase alone had me almost out the door. I went to walk away before something stopped me. I turned around and was awestruck. 

     "I don't believe so, I'm not really from around here, or I should say haven't been living here long" My heart was beating out of my chest. 

     " Oh, well I'm Ellie, but my friends call me E." She stuck her hand out for a handshake. I shook her hand and told her my name. She had this laugh that was heartwarming and peaceful. Her smile alone had me at hello. We talked about different records, different music genres. I smiled and nodded, absolutely speechless with how ambitious and driven she was. We left the shop and headed to get coffee. Time slowed for what it seemed, specifically for us. We strolled, and we ran, complained that we were out of shape. She grabbed my hand and held it as we talked about star wars conspiracies and what we would change differently about DC characters. It wasn't until dinner we talked about our pasts and how they made us who we are today. Even through her troubling past, she stood strong ready to take on the world and the helpless romantic within me caved. 

     As the evening came to an end walking her to her car she questioned the connection of humans between each other. Comparing the emotional network of the human race to that of a brain and its' neurons. I had never, in my young life had such an in depth and intelligent conversation with another human being like I did with her. Up until this moment, love at first sight was just another movie fantasy to me. This however, was different. This was love at first conversation. There was no tension, no walls that had been put up. She was everything I was looking for and dreaming of, come true, and I had completely and utterly fallen for her. 

     I made sure to get her number, and texted her immediately. We talked more and more every night and the more I learned the more I fell. I wanted to take away all the wrong in the world and give her everything she deserved. She was a goddess in my eyes, and I made sure she was the happiest person in my small world. My motivations changed, my outlook was widened. My heart was unchained and raced around wildly. Normally I would have tried to keep it tucked away, but I knew she was safe to entrust it to. The world spun around me and I felt warm inside all the time. Was this love? What was this exactly? Whatever it was I enjoyed it and never wanted it to fade. With her by my side, it never did. 

     The days turned into weeks. Weeks into months. I knew everything there was to know about her, and her about I. The days ticked away like minutes, every moment stored in their own safe of memories. The small coffee dates, long walks leading no where. The favorite I held was simply laying in bed on a rainy Sunday. Hot tea and coffee, and being in her presence. I had felt true bliss within her. Our souls melted together like an artists palette. Our pasts may have made us, but we defined ourselves on our own accord. To see the universe within someone else cannot be explained with words to human knowledge. That is an experience that can only be felt and seen.