Where The Lotus Blooms.

Balance

     Time was only a matter of personal perception. If we wanted time to fly we made it so. If we wanted it to slow so we could cherish the moment, we did that more often then not. It didn't take long for me to recover, and months later E and I were married. We enjoyed out honeymoon far away from everyone, on an island that seemed untouched by time or man. The sunsets and sunrises were left us speechless every time. We talked about somewhere we would want to settle down in the next five years. Outside of Seattle seemed to call to both of us. We spent the next months and years saving and building out nest egg. We had found a house that was absolutely perfect for what we wanted. Three years later we bought it.

     The move to Washington wasn't as bad as we expected. We had each other and that was all we needed. She found time to begin writing her book, I immediately found a job. We settled down. I installed a porch swing big enough to fit us, and a little extra room to lounge in on our lazy days. We found another favorite coffee shop, this one had put all of the other ones to shame. Every morning I woke up and saw her I was still in awe that she said yes. Yes to marrying me, yes to moving in, yes to being my girlfriend. Yes to the coffee shop date where it all started. She helped ground me and sense reality. She had motivated me to do better, not only for me but for both of us. She was there when there wasn't any light, and she shined brightest on the sunniest of days. An impeccable gem, one in a lifetime. I knew how she liked her coffee, her tea, even knew how to make her spaghetti just the right way. E you had brought true balance to my life. You helped me out of the rut I thought I wasn't in. You took my hand and showed me the better side of life. I couldn't imagine where I would be had you not came into my life when you did. 

     The weekends we always started out on the swing. Our hair looking like troll dolls, while we were still in our pajamas. We overlooked the forest, and for hours we could get lost just in the feeling and sight of it. The fresh pine and oak mixing together forming a different scent of nature everyday. I told her everyday that I was still nervous and had butterflies in my stomach. She would giggle and shake her head. That smile and laugh is everything that I lived for. Everything was so smooth and easy going. We had our arguments, but we talked things out and understood where we were coming from. It just made things ten times easier. Not a day goes by where I wasn't constantly lost in her eyes. I had pictures on my phone, in my wallet, in my car. If I ever got down, or in my head I could always look at her eyes and immediately feel better. 

     I promise to you E, this life we have made, short as it is, I will make this work and do everything to make it work. I've become a different man, and I owe it all to you. I yearn for the day where I am old and slow and can still look at you the same way I did when we were young. I can't put the words into my head of how much you mean to me. Thank you E. I know you've been a light, and will continue to be my light and peace in tough and easy times. 

     I only believed the lotus bloomed once, but with you, I know the lotus blooms annually. Each bloom is different as the petals unfold from a different point each time. You are my lotus, blooming forever and entirely.