in·de·ci·sion- /ˌindəˈsiZH(ə)n/
noun
the inability to make a decision quickly.
synonyms: indecisiveness, irresolution, irresoluteness, lack of resolution, hesitancy, hesitation
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" I mean it in the nicest way ski. I mean like you were a stick. Its good weight" I was honest with him.
"well if you mean that truly...Thank you" Stokeley smiled, and i nodded.
"Yeah X, she still a keeper"Stokeley said and all the guys nodded, making me nervous.
Jahseh stood there quietly, eyeing me. I couldn't read his emotions so I stared at the floor instead.
"ayo, Ren" Ski called.
I glanced at him meaning for him to go on.
"don't tell yo friends that you been hanging out wit us, they gon' try to find us" Jahseh told me.
"i won't" I told them truthfully.
My phone began to ring, and i slipped it out of my back pocket, reading the caller id. It read 'mom'. Oh my gosh. I hope she didn't find out that I left school. I swear if Josephine told her-
I slowly hit the accept button, hesitantly.
"your at school, right?" My mom asked.
I couldn't lie to my mom. She could always tell if im lying or not, in person or through the phone. Plus she had and Iphone, she could track me anyways.
"actually no-"I told her.
"where are you then?" She asked.
"I-im at Walmart" I told her, cautiously.
"oh okay, is Josephine and Lucas with you?" She asked me, seeming to wonder.
"no, they are the reason i left school"
Me and my mom gave a pretty tight bind but it wasn't always like this. When i was about 6 to 13 my mom was always extra strict and it got to the point where i thought she hated me. Basically it turned to depression and I started ti get mad every time she yelled at me, or sad every time , then the emotion would be so strong that i would turn to cutting instead. Basically i had to go to counseling which didn't help at all, but around 15 i found out about X which is why i feel so close to him now.
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"okay well can you get home in about 15 minutes?" She asked me, but it was really a demand " i need you to watch your brother"
"okay, i'll be there" I told her.
"Um, guys i have to go home" I told them, not really wanting to leave.
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I mentally rolled my eyes, I didn't want her to leave but i guess i really had no choice but to let her go. I opened my phone going to 'create a new contact' , and then handing Serenity my phone.
She glanced at it, and then me, smirking a little. She typed in her 10 digit phone number, and then saved it as ' serenity', no emojis or anything. I was definitely gonna change that.
Ima have to do something about this girl. I need her. And i need her as soon as possible.
she will be mine.
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