in·de·ci·sion- /ˌindəˈsiZH(ə)n/
noun
the inability to make a decision quickly.
synonyms: indecisiveness, irresolution, irresoluteness, lack of resolution, hesitancy, hesitation
Yeah so alot is happening , and every thing is just so fucked up right now .
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I laid on the bed beside Jahseh, as I cried to myself softly.
I tried so hard. I've gotten outside twice now, and no one was there? This is florida people are always outside.
Was I meant to be here? If so, why?
Jahseh pulled me to him.
"baby, can you stop cryin' ? I'm sorry I had to do that, but I told you. There is gon' be a consequence every time you try to do that." Jahseh wiped the tears off of my eyes.
I hid my face, and turned back over, making Jahseh sigh.
"one day ima do that to you, and you gon' like it" Jahseh assured me.
I ignored him, seeming to fuck with his feelings.
Jahseh sucked his teeth, pulling me back to him once again.
"I just want to love you" jahseh put his head in my neck, making me turn around to face him to make it more comfortable for myself.
Jahseh put me on my back, and then got on top of my body, that was half naked, and he was still in his boxers.
" im so sorry" jahseh said, his voice muffled because his mouth was to my neck.
I had began to stop crying. I held jah, and i could feel his genuine upset vibes coming from him. I guess he truly was sorry. But still, did I really deserve that?
"I'm trying...to make this as good as possible for you." Jahseh sighed.
He turned over, so that he wasnt laying on me anymore, now he was laying beside me, and facing me.
"I don't know what more you want" jahseh put his face in his palms.
I looked at him, waiting for him to say something else.
"I got you this. Everything in this room. I'm bringing you food, showing you love. Babygirl...what do you want?" He stared ne in my eyes.
I looked down, but it just happened to be to his boxers. As soon as I noticed what I was looking at, I looked away, swiftly.
I glanced back at Jahseh, who had noticed what I was looking at too, and he smirked a little.
"I- sorry" I said blushing, looking away from his face.
He grabbed my jawline, and lifted my head up, so that I was looking at him again.
"You good, tell me what you want, I'm tryna keep you happy." Jahseh explained to me, with a serious face now.
