You know what, fuck language arts. Dont get me wrong, I absolutely love reading and writing and I'm fine with revising and editing, but I hate reading comprehension.
Never in my fucking life, after reading a story/passage/selection/book, never in my fucking life have I thought to myself after reading, "hm, I wonder what the author was trying to make me feel?" or "i wonder, why did they write this, what was their purpose?"
Like I don't fucking know, to make money? To not be starving? What did they try to make me feel? I have no fucking clue, I laughed at the bitch that died and I was supposed to be sad? Well fuck you, I'm sorry that I'm a physcotic bitch, send me to the fucking counselor again, see what fucking happens.
Speaking of school related shit. I really am suffering through my woodshop. Like I finished my habache can I go now? No it doesnt matter if I finished the shit, I still got to get a 20 for the day. My teacher also needs to learn how to put on fucking deodorant. Also it doesn't fucking matter that I'm General Forman, I dont know what your referring to. IF YOU HADNT FUCKING NOTICED THIS IS MY FIRST YEAR AT THIS SCHOOL I DONT KNOW WHAT SHIT IS BECAUSE MY LAST TEACHER DIDN'T TEACH SHIT.
I can't deal with Art atm. Like this bitch first made me do a self portrait, realisticly, painted with acrylic and have a full background. It looks fucking nasty and I hate it like the coloring is nasty and the proportions are off and my mom wants to fucking FRAME IT AND IM LIKE STOP ITS DISGUSTING. Anygay, I recently finished but I wasn't as fast as the others so it took a fucking while and in that time they finished and started clay. So I had to make that up and it wasn't as nice as theirs but in that time, they started and finished a wet chalk project so I'm currently working on that. BUT THIS BITCH HAS THE AUDACITY TO START ANOTHER FUCKING PROJECT TOMORROW AND IM LIKE FUCKING STOP. I feel bad for my friend illuma-not-e because she isn't done with her portrait but our bitchass teacher is putting her in a contest and is telling her to finish by like Friday this fucking week. Like bitch it's taken over three months to get to where she's at, she cant just finish in 3 hours at that point. So yeah that's that.
BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE
So I'm in Horizons/GT (gifted and talented) and it's basically for "smart people". I dont know how I fucking got in, but all I know is that my test on shapes and shit in 4th grade was hella confusing and I came to the conclusion that the answer was normally b or c. Anygay, they're making us do a fucking mandatory "passion project" and I'm honestly going to kill myself over this project I swear to God. I was fukcing extra and decided to do my project on China. BUT NOT JUST FUCKING CHINA.
My bitchass self decided to do it on the history of China, how that history effects modern day China, how their history eff ed nct neighboring countries and the world and finally how China effects the USA and what Chinese influences are found in America.
NOW I DIDNT FUCKING REALIZE THAT CHINA HAD 37 FUCKING DYNASTIES NOT JUST 4 OR SOMETHING AND IM DOJNG A SUMMARIZATION OF WHAT HAPPENED IN EACH DYNASTY. So I'm at like 4 dynasties and I'm already over 1500 words and I wanna kill myself because the lady who runs it wants to see us tomorrow and I'm not even done with the first part so RIP.
Aight so RIP, stream Miroh, petition for no wig on Johnny during wakey-wakey and um yeah.
Ps: for those who care
So due to this project thing that has been taking up lots of time I won't be updating on that new story. I plan to release it on the day BTS' new album comes out- im blanking on the name right now rip- but no promises. Before summer comes around though hopefully, probably....
Pps: My mom keeps telling me that I'm too fucking young to decide my sexuality and I'm confused and shit, and I'm like no bitch, I'm pansexual and that's that there is no fucking confusion here like I want to fucking kill myself because she told me the other day that like a third of the people who claim they're gay actually are, the other two-thirds aren't. Like bitch, shut the fuck up.
Ppps: Since no one has read this yet lol, I feel asleep and now I'm blind so that's fucking fun. If yall didnt know or I haven't explained it, I have a thing called hard contacts. What people wear during the day and take off are called soft contacts, well I have hard contacts. You put them in at night and it reshapes your cornea while you sleep. Well, my dumbass self accidentally fell asleep and my eyes started reverting back to its original blind ass state and now I cant fucking see. My vision is literally worse than my grandmother's and she wears fucking trifocals. Even worse, since my shit got stolen, check my messages board lmao, I forgot if I put it in here, I dont have my glasses anymore so fuck.
Pppps: I'm writing this on my phone (technically not MY phone but whatever) so sorry for grammatical errors and mistakes lol
Anygay, if yall read this thank you sm I love you, I try and
Bye again I guess
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