Same Old Love (GaWong)

Chapter 51

Deanna's

After our bond with the AlyDen last night, our days are even getting busier dahil 3 more sleeps before the wedding day. I just can't believe that I didn't refused this shit. Mapapaisip ka nalang talaga eh, ginawa ko ba talaga 'to? Nagpaka-duwag ba talaga ako? Minsan talaga, napapaisip ka nalang sa mga katangahan mo sa buhay eh.

I woke up around 5:30 in the morning, I decided to jog around Quezon City. Tamang takbo lang, habang sila naghahanda para sa kasal. Sorry, not interested eh.

I stopped for a while dahil sumakit bigla yung tuhod. I sat on the ground and looked up to the sky. Hindi pa ganun ka-liwanag since wala pang 6am. But I can clearly see how beautiful the sky is.

Parang siya, kapag tumitingin ako sakanya, nawawala lahat ng nasa paligid ko. Pakiramdam ko, kaming dalawa lang yung tao sa buong mundo. Pero yung pakiramdam na yun, bigla nalang naglaho. Hindi ko alam kung ilang beses ko pa ba kailangang sisihin yung sarili ko, kung pwedeng habang buhay yung pagsisising gagawin ko ayos lang. Aish.

"Iiyak ka nanaman ba? Araw araw ka nalang umiiyak, araw araw mo nalang sinisisi yung sarili mo sa nangyayari sainyo." Tinignan ko yung taong nagsalita. Si Ate Kianna pala. How did she get here? Pano niya nalamang nandito ako.

"Alam mo, kung tutuusin. Si Jema, nasaktan siya ng sobra eh. Pero ikaw? Nagsakripisyo ka rin ng sobra pa sa sobra. You let go the person you love the most just to satisfy your father's need." Ate Kianns smiled bitterly at me.

"You sacrificed a lot for her and for the both of you. Just to make sure that she'll not get hurt. Just to make sure that she's safe..." Ate Kianna stopped and hugged me. "You let her go." She whispered.

"Because I love her so much, ate. I love her so much to the point that I'll let her go even though it'll hurt me a lot. Even though it will take a million years just to forget what we had." I said between my sobs. "I love her so much, ate. I really do." I wiped my tears and looked at her.

"I know, I know. God knows too how much you love her. He knows that you sacrificed you happiness by just letting her go."

We decided to go back to the hotel kasi naalala ko that ate Bei and I are going to meet sa isang Café.

Celine made breakfast pag dating namin sa hotel. While papa left early bago pa man din ako makapag-jogging kanina.

After we eat, dumiretso na ako sa banyo at naligo na. Since nasa pilipinas na ako, nagsuot lang ako ng polo at shorts partnering with my rubber shoes.

"Ate Kianna, Celine. Pupuntahan ko lang si Ate Bei." Pagpapaalam ko sakanilang dalawa at tumango lang sila saakin.

Tinignan ko si Celine at ganun din siya sakin. Nakaramdam ako ng kakaiba kaya ako na ang unang umiwas at dumiretso na sa parking lot sa baba.

"Ma'am! Teka lang po." Lumingon ako dun sa tumawag sakin.

"May tumawag po pala kanina, lalaki. Sabihin ko daw po sainyo na kung pwede pumunta daw po siya mamaya sa unit niyo." Kumunot naman yung noo ko. Wala naman akong expected visitor.

"Sino daw po?"

"Luigi daw po yung pangalan, ma'am."

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"Deanna naman, ang tagal tagal mo. 9:30 na oh!" Sinalubong ako ni ate Bei. Paano naman kasi, akala ko ba sa malapit lang kami magkikita. Pinapunta pa akong dapitan eh malayo yung hotel namin dito.