Same Old Love (GaWong)

Three

Deanna

Katatapos lang namin manood sa sinehan. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na after 2 years of finding and longing for her, we finally met again. I don't know kung matutuwa ako, or masasaktan because maliit lang ang mundo, maaari ko siyang makita. And baka maging dahilan yun ng pagbabalik ng masakit na alala ng pag iwan niya sa'kin.

But I want to be with her. Gusto ko siyang makasama, kahit na hanggang friends na lang kami. I just want to be with her all the time, gusto kong bawiin 'yung mga panahon at oras na hindi kami magkasama.

"Tara, umuwi na tayo. It's almost 11 pm." Pag-aaya ni Ate Bea, tumango ako bilang sagot dahil ramdam ko na rin ang pagod sa katawan ko. We all went to the parking lot at sumakay sa kotse ni Ate Bei, she insisted kasi na siya nalang mag dala ng car para hindi na raw kami mahirapan ni Ponggay.

Nang makasakay kaming lahat sa loob ay agad na kumunot ang noo ko dahil sa text ni Ponggay.

From: Ponggay Gaston

Deanna, let's talk here. Bea might hear us, alam mo naman 'yan, maraming tanong.

I chuckled softly because of her message before typing my reply.

To: Ponggay Gaston

Isusumbong kita kay Ate Bea. Anyway, let's just talk tomorrow, Ponggs. Sorry, I'm kinda sleepy na rin kasi, malapit na rin tayo sa condo.

"Whatever, Deanna." Ponggay and I both laughed kaya napalingon sa'min si Ate Bea. Her face is filled with curious and confusion.

Ate Bea dropped me in-front of the building. Nagpaalam ako sakanila pareho bago bumaba ng sasakyan at pumasok sa loob. The security greeted me and I did the same. Saktong naka bukas ang elevator kaya pumasok ako kaagad at pinindot ang 4th floor button.

Nang makarating ako sa palapag ay kinapa ko ang susi sa bulsa ko. Unit 054. We both used to live here for three years. We made memories that I will never forget. Sana lang ay ganoon din siya.

Napapaisip ako sa tuwing pumapasok sa isip ko na hinayaan ko siyang sumuko, mapagod. But my perspective changed when I realized that she did that not just for her, but for me as well. We both need to grow, separately. We need to mature and focus ourselves for the better. Ganoon pa man ay hindi ko pa rin mapagilan na masabik sakaniya. I love her that much that I am willing to give up everything just to have her back. But I would let Him decides what's the best for us. Hindi ko kailanman kukwestyunin kung anong nakatadhan para sa'min pareho.

Kung dumating man ang araw na puwede na, I wouldn't let that opportunity go to waste.

I did my night rituals and changed my clothes into a comfortable one. I'm wearing our couple pajama set, this used to be our favorite. Sinusuot niya pa kaya iyong sakaniy? I hope she does.

I went straight to my bed at tinignan ang phone ko, I received a message from an unknown number

From: +63 9123 456 7890

Hi, D! It's been a long time since you and I saw each other! Looking forward to see you soon!

I don't want to assume that it's Jema who texted me but my heart said so. If she really did message me, bakit? I know I should be happy kung siya nga talaga ang nag send niyon. Pero nararamdaman kong napaka-impossible magparamdam pa siya. I can feel that she's not happy to see me, when I saw her earlier, I felt the heavy atmosphere from her presence. Para bang hindi ko siya maabot kahit na kaharap ko siya.

Itinabi ko ang cellphone ko sa tabi at piniling ipikit ang mga mata ko para makatulog.

"Shit," I whispered as I saw the clock. Tinanghali na ako ng gising! Mayroon pa 'kong importanteng kikitain ngayon.

Bumangon ako mula sa kama at ngingiting-ngiti na kinuha ang towel ko. I am really excited for today, I don't want to overthink that much today. I want to have fun and enjoy the day! Ganoon naman talaga dapat. I wore a simple polo, partnering it with shorts and my sneakers. I looked at my wrist watch and saw that it was already 9:55. Sakto lang pala. I didn't eat anything since kakain rin naman kami ng kikitain ko.

I could already feel that this day would be fun. I don't want to limit myself, maybe, just maybe, this is the first step of accepting and moving on.