Identity Disorder *Cashby* (boyxboy)

Chapter 2- Besitos

Austin's POV

What the fuck just happened? He kissed me, I kissed back. Why? I don't know if i liked it or not. What if he is gay? Do i care? No but am i? That i have no clue I'm so confused. How do i know if i liked it. Do i kiss him? Ugh. Its so hard. I'm like so confused. I slid down the bathroom door.

"Alan please come out, please?" He didn't answer. Did i make him mad?

"I'm not mad Alan okay? I need to talk to you." He didn't do anything. I can hear him crying though.

"Alan tell me what happened tonight." I heard him sniffle. Awh.

"Ashley came by bar tonight." I remember its a chick Alan hung out with all the time then they stopped talking to each other. " She was being a total bitch, she was the only one who knew i was gay." Oh so he is gay. " She told Phil and Aaron and Tino. I didn't want anyone to know austin!" He started crying even harder.

"Alan open the door." He didn't open the door. "Hey its okay. She's a total bitch, like you said. What will it take for me to get you out of the bathroom?"

He took he a little while to answer then he finally said, " i feel so ashamed i kissed you Austin, i shouldn't have put you in that situation."

I didn't want to tell him that i liked it, I'm scared of what people would think of me. "Its fine i understand it was the spur of the moment." He kept crying.

"Alan if you don't open this door I'm gonna be really pissed." I heard a click. Yes! Finally he unlock the door.

"I'm sorry so Austin." Alan said has he hugged me. I put my arms around him and squeezed. "Don't say sorry Alan, it's okay. I'm not mad. I'm your best friend, I'd do anything for you." He didn't straight up say he liked me. Thats a good thing, i can forget about it now. It never happened.

"I think you should go to sleep." Alan had a rough night, it's exactly what he needs. He left me without a word.

Tino's POV

After Alan left the bar i didn't know what to think. I mean i always thought he was gay, it was kinda obvious. "You guys Alan was super upset." They all looked at me.

"He's fine. I think he went back the bus anyway. He should be okay." Phil assured.

"Yeah so Ashby's gay lets get over it."Aaron replied sounding rather annoyed. I just ignored him.

After they finished their drinks we headed back to the bus. We took our time. We weren't in any hurry.

"Phil why are you always shy?" He slowed down. "I don't know really. I have a lot to say but it doesn't seem like good enough?" I let that sit for while. "Speak up more. Nothing's is not good enough." We walked alone in silence.

We finally got back to the bus. Aaron opened the door and you could here austin singing. I can't quite figure out what he's singing until i get closer.

"Say anything, say anything,

Say anything that can make this all okay. Take it away, take it away.

Take away all of this emptiness I feel"

From the sound of it he was serious. These lyrics had a meaning behind them. What is he talking about.

"Hey austin." He jumped, obviously scared. "You guys geez." Oops. "Sorry we are just going to bed good night." I made my way to the bunks. Alan wasn't there. Hmm.

I wonder where he was. Oh well. In sure he's in the back.

Aaron was being a total dick tonight. He wasn't even drunk. He was fine until the whole thing with Ashley went down. Whats wrong with him.

"Hey Aaron whats wrong."

"Nothing shut up."

"Aaron don't be like that."

"Shut up tino."

"Aaron please."

"I'm fine."

Austin's POV

I'm so tired. We have a show tomorrow and to too it all off its 2 in the morning. And I'm freaking out. This anxiety always gets the best of me. Calm down.

I went to the back, i need to watch tv and fall asleep. I didn't want to sleep in my bunk tonight.

Alan i suppose had the same idea. I'll just sleep on the floor. So i grabbed a blanket and laid down. Its cold down here. Ugh.

I'm stuck watching pretty little liars. I've been watching it for like 3 hours i got through 3 episodes. I'm hooked. Who the fuck is "A" like I'm so confused yet so intrigued. This is something Alan would watch. "WHAT THE FUCK HANNAH!?" I screamed louder than i thought. I heard Alan stir in his sleep. Oops.

"Austin what are you doing? Its 6 in the morning. We have a concert tonight."

"I'm sorry i didn't mean to wake you i can't sleep, it's too cold." Cold is an understatement.

"I would ask you to join me but after what happened last night you probably don't want to."

I thought about for awhile he looked so adorable who couldn't say yes? "You know what can i join you? Its super freezing down here." With one simple nod of the head i got up.

Should i ask him now? "Alan umm when you kissed me, was it because you liked me?"

"I don't know. It was a reaction, i really don't know."

I want to tell him I'm questioning my sexuality. But i shouldn't tell he is the reason.

"Before you kissed me i was questioning if i was gay or not. The whole thing with gielle messed me up." He looked like he was searching for the lie in my eyes.

"Austin come here." I did as he asked. " i want you to figure it out yourself. If you're gay you'll know. It's your choice stand still. Or get turned on." He gave me a wink.

He moved his hands under my shirt, over my scar to my lower stomach. He brought his lips to my neck. This is were i lost it. That completely turned me on. I pulled him closer and started kissing him roughly.

"A-Austin stop." I stop and i was not able to talk. I'm definitely attracted to him. "I'm sorry. I couldn't help myself." He just gave me a smile. "Its okay haha but its time to sleep." He's right its way past time. "Goodnight Austin."

With my back towards his, i closed my eyes. Its a lot warmer. I was slowly falling to sleep. Alan must have been asleep because i could hear his snoring. I turned around and put my arms around him. I sat there thinking while i was drifting off. I definitely like him. His smile, his cat tattoo, his lighthearted attitude, and his eyes. Everything about him.

So say it, say I'm in love.

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Song: Besitos- Pierce The Veil