The Great Pretender

Chapter 2: First

Naitext ko yung tropa ko na tropa din niya. Si Edmar.

Louise: Nandiyan pa ba si JM?

Edmar: Oo.

Louise: Pwede makausap siya. Sira daw kasi phone niya.

(Tanga mo naman Louise, alam mo ng nagrarason lang yun eh!)

JM on Edmar's phone.

Edmar: Oh! It's me.

Louise: Ano bang gusto mong mangyari?

Since that day na sinabi ko yung about kay Kevin. Dina siya nagtext. Yes, that was my plan. No need to worry right?

JM: Ikaw? Ano bang gusto mo?

Louise: Aayaw mona ba talaga?

JM: Medyo. Kasi parang hindi ako yung tamang lalaki para sayo. Naguguilty ako. I know. Alam mo mga pinaggagagawa ko.

Louise: So, ayaw mo na talaga?

JM: Oo.

Louise: Ok. Bahala ka. It's your decision.

(Yes, para manghinayang siya. It's him, my first boyfriend and the first person who broke my heart.)

After a few minutes...

Edmar: JM is crying.

I don't know why I felt that feeling. May kirot akong naramdaman. Diko alam. Naalala ko tuloy yung kasabihang...

"Hangaan mona ang isang lalaki once na umiyak na siya, dahil dito mo malalaman na mahal ka at mahalaga ka talaga niya."

Damn it! Naguluhan ako bigla. Pero at the end of the day, isa lang magiging desisyon ko.

Ayoko na.

This is my story about how I met the one at the wrong time. My first heartbreak was one of the biggest learning experiences I've had so far. I didn't realize how emotionally damaging this relationship was until I left it. I loved him, I admit, not much. and I know he loved me. But, not a single relationship is perfect. As being only 17 years old, I still have a hell of a lot of growing up to do. I tried. Pero wala eh. Baka di talaga ako swerte sa lovelife haha.

Two months na ang nakakaraan simula nung nagbreak kami. Three weeks siya nanligaw and perfectly three weeks lang din naging kami. Pero bat ganun? Bakit may pagkakataon talaga na pagtatagpuin kayo ulit. Nakakainis lang. Sarap niyang sapakin.