Open Fortress

I Can't Believe

I can't believe all that has happened

I can't believe I missed you so much

I can't believe that what I thought was eternal

Is now just suddenly gone.

I can't understand how much

You wanted me to love you

And then just suddenly want me

To stop being such a bother 

I can't believe how easy

It was for you to forget me

I can't believe how easy

You think I would forget

I can't believe you left me

When it was I who was to leave

I can't believe how dumb it is

To think so high of thee

I guess it's cuz of first love

I guess it's just cuz it hurts

But when I used to think of you

It hurt so much it cut

I've always been realistic

I never trust too much

But you fought for so long

I couldn't help but fall

And not even a day after

I felt so effing small

You felt so insecure

You wanted to break up

I'm sorry I was never there

I'm sorry I trust too much

I'm sorry I worry a lot

I'm sorry I never thought

You'd leave me hanging on a thread

Just about to tear

I'm sorry I didn't show you

All I had to bear

After that for months and days and nights of helpless sleep

I never cried until the day your face I thought I'd never see

You'd never know how much I really loved you

I never knew you were such a liar

To call you a liar would be to call myself one too

You closed your walls and put cement and awkward is all there is to you

It hurts a little, but not so much, and then I lied to myself too

To get over you, I trusted myself alone

It's not over, you're just childish, karma friendzoned you too

There's nothing better than knowing when you don't

Have anything to cry for, because it is not gone

It is back to how it is supposed to be

It is awkward, I admit

I am sorry, but you don't give a shit

So why shoud I, if I already gave

All there is to give, but I have to learn to live

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Done at the moment, no proofwrite, but I just felt like writing