Peraltiago/Dianetti AU

We broke each others hearts

Author's note: Hey everyone, today we got more Dianetti stuff bc who doesn't love that. This chapter is dedicated to my sister, who just randomly came out to our family in the middle of dinner.

Gina's POV

We were hanging out at Shaw's like we always do. It just didn't feel right

Something was off about today. Normally we can talk so easily that we end up just chatting for hours.

Not today, today we were sitting in an uncomfortable silence. It had been a week since Rosa had kissed me, but I had kind of messed it up.

A day after, she asked me out. I said no.

What I didn't tell her is that I really wanted to, but I was terrified of what would happen if people found out I was bi. Gay people just aren't accepted and I didnt want to be bullied, or be the reason that Rosa was.

What I didnt tell her was that I knew she was insanely strong, but I was hiding all of my insecurities from everyone else and if I had one more problem to deal with I would break.

What I didn't tell her was that I was a coward.

And it kind of ruined everything.

I had no idea why Jake and Amy were being quiet, but I knew Rosa and I were being quiet because I had pretty much destroyed our friendship when I rejected her.

Maybe Amy was mad at Jake for getting suspended. Maybe something happened between them (finally.) Maybe it's because I usually lead our conversations and they didnt know what to do.

I can focus on them later. To be honest I don't really care about their love lives anymore now that mine is pretty active.

That's not to say I won't be messing with them later.

After a mere twenty minutes, Amy has already decided to leave.

"Sorry, it's just pretty weird today," she sighed.

"Yeah, guys, what is going on?" asked Charles.

"What do you mean?" Asked Jake. Acting as though he didn't realize he was being the same.

"I'm always the most quiet one, and today I've probably said more than all of you combined. I'm especially confused by Gina. She's always very talkative, but today she's barely said a word," Charles explained.

I guess it was true. I hadn't been talking at all.

"I'm deep in thought," I shrugged.

"I thought you had to have a brain to think," Rosa snapped.

"Ooh, Burn!" Amy laughed.

Amy had completely misread what Rosa had just said. She didn't mean as a playful joking insult. It was serious to her and I.

Rosa was actually mad at me for not agreeing to go out with her.

It was totally fair. I mean, I was mad at me, too.

Amy just left, Jake left a couple minutes later, and then another ten minutes after that, Charles left.

That left only Rosa and I.

I looked at her with probably the saddest expression on my face. She looked back at me with a strong emotion that anyone could read.

I sighed and said, "I'm sorry."

"No, I get it," she replied.

"What?" I asked.

"I get it. I wouldn't wanna go out with me either," she sighed. I must have really broken her if she's super self-conscious now.

"It has nothing to do with you," I assured her. I got up and moved to the side of the table she was sitting.

"That's what you say to a person to make them feel better about something that is 100% their fault," she snapped.

"Not in this case," I confessed, "I really would like to go out with you, but I'm just too scared because we're both girls and you know how homophobic everyone is at school and at home. I'm just a coward, and it's negatively affecting you."

After I finished talking, she leaned over to me. I got to admit, I thought she was gonna kiss me for a second, and that terrified me.

Instead of kissing me she whispered, " I have another idea. We sneak around together and no one has to know about us."

I smiled. It sounded like a great plan. "Wanna come to my place?" I suggested.

She nodded and we paid our bill and walked out.

We walked to my place super giddy. I was extremely sure that my mom wasnt going to walk in on us today. She probably wasnt gonna be home until 9:00 because of a team meeting or something.

We walked into my apartment and dropped our bags at the door. Rosa got her phone out of her bag and quickly texted her mom that she was over at my place studying, and she'd be home late.

Yeah. Studying.

"What do you mean 'studying?'" I teased.

"Well, I think there's something I'll be studying tonight," she teased back

"Yeah you will," I responded before taking her hand and pulling her to my bedroom.

I closed the door behind me and pushed Rosa up against the wall while kissing her softly.

Last time I had kissed her, it had been fast, desperate. This time it was slow and sweet.

I definitely like this new arrangement.

She pulled me towards some other part of the room that I wasn't sure what it was, and I pushed her towards the wall.

We ended up doing this kind of dance where we just kept on going around in circles.

In the end I realized where she was pulling me: the bed.

I pulled apart from her quickly. "Wait what are you planning on doing?" I asked.

"No, not that, I just was thinking we could make out on your bed," she explained.

"I like the sound of that," I said and pushed her onto the bed before jumping on top of her and kissing her again.

This time our kisses were sweet, but also desperate.

We ended up just kissing for another half hour before deciding that we both needed a water break.

"That was fun," I said.

"Yeah, we should do this again sometime," she replied.

"Oh, I'm definitely gonna do that again," I assured her.

"Good," she said.