Peraltiago/Dianetti AU

Summer

Amy's POV

School ended a week ago. You'd think I'd be upset about it, but I'm not. Public education isnt structure well enough for my liking. Its much too easy. This is proven by the fact that Jake was never kept back a year.

Oh. Yeah, him.

Last I heard him and Sophia are still going strong. I'm kinda happy for him, but also no. I wish it could've been different.

If I had only gained the confidence earlier on it might have been different. I could've told him on Halloween when he comforted me. I could've admitted it on Thanksgiving when my brother outed me.

I havent seen much of my friends yet this summer. Rosa, Gina and I had a sleepover two days ago. They seemed much more connected to each other than me. I wish I had that kind of friendship. I did have that kind of friendship. With Jake. Of course, that was when he thought my feelings toward him were entirely platonic. Why did I have to screw up our friendship like that?

He stopped coming to Shaw's for the last month of school. Actually he still came, but he spent his afternoons at a different table laughing and enjoying things with Sophia. That's all I wanted. What was so great about her? Why couldn't it have been me?

Doesnt matter.

What matters now is what she just posted on her Instagram story. A picture of her and Jake looking super happy. And that's her bedroom! Ugh!

Please dont let the caption be I love you. Please dont let caption be I love you. Please please please.

What?

It says "I miss you 💔😔." Is he on vacation?

Check the comments.

valoriestravinski: he doesnt deserve you!
cathybrown: you're better off without that loser...
cathybrown: I'm coming over with ice cream tomorrow!!
_.hailey._: love you😭😭

Check her bio.

She used to have the initials J.P. with a heart emoji.

Excuse me??? Where are they!!

Check her posts with him in them.

All untagged, including the one she just posted. Oh my God. This has to be a dream. A really really sick messed up dream.

Check Jake's account. Didnt he have S.P. in his bio? Yes he did. I remember specifically hating it so much I cried into my pillow for half an hour.

Theres no pictures of her. That cant be right. He posted so many selfies together and candid pics he took of her. A lot at Shaw's, including one with Charles in the background.

Check his story.

Chainmail.....Chainmail.....

Oh! On a black background he has the following words in white font: for anyone wondering Sophia and i did break up. Dont hmu.

OH. MY. GOD.

I-

I cant.

Words dont....work

No.

Yes.

Ahhhhhh.

Its too muchhhhh

I cannot think straight.

I know he said not to hit him up.

But....I really wanna.

I'll just send him something simple.

I go to explore and find a half decent meme. I send it to him.

3 minutes later hes active. 1 minute after that hes seen it. 5 minutes later he sends "😂."

I leave it a minute, then I say "I've missed you."

He says "me too"

"Wanna get some coffee?" I hold my breath and bite my lip.